AND I WONDER IF I EVER CROSS YOUR MIND

[emeline l. bletchley]

[/color] james potter
word count • 2494
thread setting • 2027 just before christmas; late night at a pub
listening too • nothing atm
notes • wahoo for futurness!
credit • too moi![/ul]

looking down at her beautiful baby boy, Emeline Bletchley couldn't believe just how much her life had changed in the past few years. if you had asked her that she'd be where she was today when she was sixteen she probably would have laughed at the mere idea. even if she had had a crush on the man who was now her fiancee, she still wouldn't have ever thought things would turn out the way they did. granted in her sixth year Emeline was quite sure that her life was ending all because of one guy that she saw now was not the guy for her. at the still young age of twenty one just months shy of twenty two, things seemed to be finally coming together for her. she was engaged to a wonderful and marvelous man, someone who had been her best friend since her first year at Hogwarts. that man was none other then Tucker Weasley, and boy had they over come their obstacles to get where they were. yet they had been together for just about five years now and things really couldn't get any better. well except for on the day that they would say i do, and even that seemed to be coming up rather quickly. it had seemed like Emeline had been planning their wedding for months on end, having done most of the work well she was pregnant with their first child. nine months was a long time to be able to do nothing and that was exactly all she was allowed to do. Tucker had been so worried that something would go admist that he refused to let her over work herself and unfortunately the Healer had agreed. given the circumstances that she had lost a child once before and the fact that she was so tiny, she had been under bed rest for majority of her pregnancy. something that didn't sit well with the former Ravenclaw, not liking that she couldn't always be busy doing something. that was when she had started planning their wedding for Tucker had proposed just before she had found out she was pregnant. it was like everything had been happening so fast, though those nine months seemed to feel like they had taken forever. now though they had this precious baby boy who was no more then two months old and with each passing day Emeline was seeing that he looked more and more like his father. she could only hope that when he got older he would have his fathers personality as well, because if he had hers then they were going to be in some trouble. for little Trenton could be quite the heart breaker if he wanted to be.

reaching down Emeline brushed her fingers lightly against her sons fingers, able to watch him sleep for hours. she had fallen into the mother role very easily, like it was second nature to her and she loved every minute of it. this precious little bundle of joy was the perfect combination between the both of them. seeing the glitter of her engagement ring being caught by the moon light that was streaming into the room she couldn't keep herself from smiling. taking her hand slowly out from her sons crib Emeline sighed softly. it was hard to believe that four years ago she had been arranged to marry one of her other best friends Tristan Baddock. when her parents had found out that she was dating a Weasley, well to say they were less then thrilled would be a bit of an understatement. her mum wouldn't hear anything about it and made sure her father perused her some sort of pureblood husband. given that her mum had always adored Tristan when he and Emeline had dated it had seemed all signs pointed to him. the news had been plenty shocking to Emeline but it still didn't change how she felt about Tucker, nothing would. sure she had cared about Tristan and they might have made a perfect pureblood couple but he was her best friend. however her parents seemed to think that because they had dated and appeared to be in love before that it would be no problem for them to be together for the rest of their lives. yes she had loved Tristan but it was nothing compared to how she felt about Tucker. the way she loved him, it was completely and indescribable. not even the love she felt for Carter held a light to the way she loved Tucker and that was saying something since breaking up with Carter was one of the hardest things Emeline had ever went through. it was that break up that had led her into the arms of Tucker in a way that she would have never considered before since she had been denying her feelings for him since her third year. pain was something that Emeline never handled very well. it seemed that whenever she was hurting she would turn to the wrong sort of comfort and that comfort usually came in the form of a member of the opposite sex. it wasn't something she was proud of but thankfully it wasn't as bad as it could have been. she could have wound up sleeping with random blokes but instead found herself in bed with guys that she had already been with. it was far from healthy, especially sleeping with James, but it was what it was.

James Sirius Potter, was bound to be the end of Emeline Bletchley. he was the one guy that she should have known to stay away from but for some reason kept going back too. it seemed like no matter what happened in her life, whenever something went wrong James was there to help her through it. it was an odd way of explaining things, especially since the two of them hated each other so and barely tolerated one another now because of Tucker but that was how it was. of course he wasn't there for her in the friend sort of way, oh no. he was there for her in the worse sort of way, erasing all sort of pain from her mind and replacing it with pleasure the sort that these days she had only been having with Tucker. thankfully though, she seemed to have washed her hands of James. having no reason to go back to him because she was finally in a happy and amazing relationship. the only time she saw him now was at Weasley family gatherings and that was because she would attend with Tucker. it was ironic that it was one of these family get togethers that had almost costed her Tucker in the first place. she still remembered that day as though it was yesterday and whenever she would think about it chills would go through her body. in her sixth year Tucker had asked her to attend the Weasley Family Christmas with him and she had gladly agreed forgetting James would be there. Emeline had barely spoken to him, but realization had hit her that if she wanted anything with Tucker and she did more then ever then she would have to be honest with him about everything. it was later on in that evening when Tucker had joined her at her house to get his gift that Emeline finally told him everything. how when she had thought she was pregnant back in her third year, James was the one that she had been sleeping with or rather had some sort of secret relationship with. she even told him how even though that had hurt her, James just abandoning her like that, she was still going back to him and had just recently slept with him. her heart ached at the expression that had come across Tucker's face and watching him walk away had been the hardest thing ever. Emeline thought for sure she had lost him that night, so much so that she even went and cried on his brothers shoulder about how foolish she had been and how she had loved Tucker all this time. the next day though Tucker had come to her and refused to throw everything they had away for his cousin. Emeline didn't think it could get much better then just finally being with Tucker, but soon found that it could. when they got engaged and when she found out she was pregnant, things just kept on getting better.

though things had hardly fallen into place for the pair it seemed like every obstacle they over came only really made them that much more stronger. she was meant to be with Tucker Weasley, she knew that in her heart and nothing was going to change that for her. out of all the guys in her past, and there was seemingly a long list of them, Tucker was the one for her. she honestly couldn't wait to say i do in a few short weeks and continue to make gorgeous babies with him. smiling as the thought crossed her mind, just as a pair of arms came around her waist from behind Emeline sighed contently. they had just gotten back from a the Weasley Christmas family get together, all so thrilled and excited to see little Trenton and the night had generally been a good night. something was off with Tucker though, Emeline could just tell. resting her hands upon his and leaning back against him ever so slightly she could feel the tension in his body and knew something was wrong. turning around to face him with a curious expression she took his hand in hers and lead him from their first childs room into their own. "whats wrong Tucker?" the question came from her lips as she closed the door, turning around so her blue eyes settle on her fiancee. after a moment or two of silence and them simply looking at one another he finally answered. "you looked mighty friendly with James tonight." all Emeline could do was stare at him. she had thought they were beyond this, but apparently it would always be a sore spot with them. a heavy sigh escaping her lips she crossed the room and sat down next to him. "i thought we were over this Tucker. i thought accepting your proposal would make you see that i only want to be with you. i can't keep defending myself every time we are around James. he's your cousin, he's gonna be around whether we like it or not so why not make the most out of it?" trying to keep herself calm and rational through this, not really wanting to fight with him. "being aroud him is one thing. laughing and smiling around him is another Eme!" Tucker replied getting up off the bed making Emeline completely dumb founded. standing up Emeline smoothed out her skirt and looked down at the engagement ring on her finger. "if you don't trust me around him, then you don't trust me at all Tucker. which means that i shouldn't be wearing this." sliding her engagement ring off she walked over to him and placed it in his hand, gently closing his fingers around it. "i love you Tucker, but if you don't trust me then i can't do this. i thought we put this behind us, we were moving forward and i was looking forward to being your wife in a few weeks." looking up at him with tears in her eyes Emeline stepped around him and opened the door.

without another word Emeline left their room and went downstairs. she didn't give Tucker a chance to say anything else, as she gathered her purse and coat leaving the home they had been living in for the past year. tugging on her coat as she closed the door behind her and pulling the hood up, to protect herself against the harsh wind that had picked up outside. the dead of winter, almost Christmas day and Emeline had no idea where she was going to go. she wasn't like most purebloods and had a spare apartment or anything like that, she didn't think she'd ever need one. her home with Tucker was the only place she wanted to be but apparently he didn't think that was the case. shaking her head Emeline apperated from the front porch taking herself to the only place she could think of. Diagon Alley. it hadn't changed since her years of going there as a kid but the only place she was interested in was the pubs. it wasn't that she wanted to drink but it was the only place she could think of that would be warm and have other people around so she wouldn't feel so alone. she had left the man she loved at home with their child, she felt empty and lost. her heels clicked against the cobblestone walk way as she headed into the pub, brushing the snow of her coat as she entered. not really giving the people around her a single look she walked right up to the bar and took up one of the stools. it was then that the tears finally rolled down her cheeks, causing her to put her face into her hands. she honestly couldn't believe after everything this was what it had come down too. "what can i get you miss?" the heavy voice of the bar tender reached her ears. brushing the tears from her cheeks Emeline lifted her head high, as to say that she was perfectly okay and looked at him. "vodka tonic please." so much for not wanting alcohol. once the drink was in her hand Emeline took a small sip and looked around. her eyes however only got about an inch away from the bar when they landed on him. of all the people James Potter had to be in the pub that she went too. of course this would be just her luck. sighing heavily, she looked away from him hoping that he hadn't seen her, especially that he hadn't seen her cry. fate was either trying to play a cruel joke on her or temptation was attempting to knock at the worse time. she was never very good at being in a room on her own with James, but tonight she was gonna try to stay strong. just so that she could say she had been and that she could tell Tucker that he had nothing to worry about because she loved him. now if only it would work.

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[james s. potter]

baby, without you, i’m nothing, i’m so lost, hug me --- *
THEN TELL ME HOW UGLY I AM BUT THAT YOU'LL ALWAYS LOVE ME

james was now twenty-two as he woke up in his bed. he rubbed his hands over his eyes trying to shake the sleepiness from them. james rolled over on the bed looking over to see a blonde next to him. so james' life hadn't changed from his time at hogwarts. no girl had been able to walk into his life to change it. james had thought at the age of seventeen that in the future that some girl would be able to reel him down into a stable relationship but none had been able to. he had a girlfriend for a year before he couldn't handle it anymore. james couldn't handle how serious it had gotten between her and him. while mrs. potter would like for her son to have grown up, james really hadn't. his career now was a professional quidditch player (play during the day and fun during the night). his life was still fun for him. james had never thought much of a career. to become an auror like his father had been was out of the question and for james to work with dragons would be too much for him. james had chosen something that he had always been good at. that had been quidditch. he had made a star of himself easily. for one, the potter name was famous. when the press heard that a potter wanted to be in the spotlight again, they craved that. they instantly came to james with cameras and interviews. he had loved this kind of attention though. at hogwarts, he had been popular. after leaving hogwarts, james thought that his fame would leave him but it hadn't. he instantly signed onto the team that would take him. it had been a smaller team but james had shined as the star. his social life hadn't changed much from hogwarts either. at hogwarts, james had a large social circle and now being a quidditch player, he had a lot of contacts. he constantly had wizard paparazzi following him everywhere he went. his nightlife was so busy that james couldn't keep up with it. he knew that he had somewhere to go every night but never did he know the location till the last minute. all he knew was that he had to keep his looks up. james had even had the spotlight a couple of times in the muggle world. like his parents who had both learned to drive, james had also. he was a lot more in-tune with the muggle world than his parents were. james went to the muggle world more and more. james had modeled several times in the muggle world but nothing big. his love in his life had to be quidditch. it was weird seeing himself captured in one moment in time but in quidditch, he felt like time had stopped for him.

james hadn't kept in contact with many of his classmates from hogwarts. of course he had been able to keep in contact with his family who were friends but no one other than that. in his seventh year, he had been introduced to students of both beauxbatons and durmstrang but that didn't mean anything for james. that had to be the one regret that james had for his life. he had not been able to make quality relationships in his life that weren't family. family was stuck with james but the other students didn't have to be stuck with him. this was still a lesson that james was trying to figure out in life with himself. being famous, james wasn't able to trust anyone with any information. he had been a liar at hogwarts but james was now expert at it. he hid everything from everyone. there was no one from the public that james would breakdown to. he had learned this early and this meant that any companions that james had made since being at hogwarts weren't really his companions. all those girls that james had with him, he didn't actually like them. they were for the publicity. he didn't think that he would be able to trust anyone anymore. boys only wanted to steal his tips on quidditch and girls only wanted him for his fame and money. no one really wanted to know james. while james knew that he could have kept in contact with some of his classmates at hogwarts, he didn't know who. jossy finnigan had been one of the few girls at hogwarts who had been able to get close with james but after breaking his heart, james didn't know if he would be able to see her again. there was one other girl who had made a big impact in james' life at hogwarts. that girl had been emeline bletchley. james only had to see her occasionally with his cousin tucker weasley. he had been able to make up the excuse a couple times while at family reunions that his career was making him way too busy. seeing tucker so happy with her, james knew that he couldn't try to break-up the two. he thought that emeline was one of the most vile women that he had ever met but tucker was so happy. james at twenty-two could look back and see when emeline had made him happy. while it hadn't been in the best situation, she had made him happy. there had to be a line drawn when tucker was with emeline though. james respected tucker and he knew the bro code. every time, he did see emeline he had to tell himself that this wasn't hogwarts around. there was no library or broom closet to go into anymore. they weren't seventeen or sixteen anymore. they were grown adults who had to settle past feelings.

james splashed the water on his face looking up at what kind of man he had become. he watched as the blonde walked towards him wearing the white dress shirt that he had been wearing the night before. she nuzzled into his neck before telling him that she would have to leave to get ready for christmas. bloody hell! james had forgotten that tonight would be the weasley family christmas party. he sighed looking at himself. he had skipped the last reunion, he couldn't this time. not when it was christmas. james would have to get going with his day and then head out for the night. christmas was such a great time for james when he was younger. all he had were good memories of when he was younger and with family. there was no stress or drama. there was always that occasional fight between his aunts but that was normal. other than that, james remember hanging out with his cousins. he remember waking up that morning and having pillow fights with his cousins and brother before remember that it was christmas morning. presents and good food would be awaiting them. christmas was now different for james now. they didn't hold that magical spark that they once held for him.

after the party and seeing how happy everyone was, james was realizing that he had done nothing with his life. sure he was an amazing quidditch player but did that really matter? he didn't have anything of quality to go back to whenever he came back from quidditch. there would be that random girl that had wanted to come home with him but she would never give him anything more than a thrilling night. james had seen how happy tucker had been with emeline. he and emeline had a good night together actually of talking and laughing. he had meant not to flirt (knowing that they were engaged) but james couldn't help it. with their past, james was never done with emeline. she was a woman that had been taken though. a part of james wondered what would have happened with the two had james taken their relationship seriously. would something better have come out of the two? maybe if they had tried for more, james would have realized what emeline should be in his life. if the two didn't mesh well, james would quit his pondering of this subject. he couldn't though. not when tucker had taken her already. james sighed looking at the drink in front of him. he couldn't remember what number this was but he wasn't drunk enough. he still had realization of where he was on christmas. while the weasley christmas had ended early, james had his little after party by himself. he could have easily found a girl for tonight but after seeing what quality relationships his cousin had been able to have, james felt worthless. he raised his glass clinking it with a stranger beside him that he had been talking to. he was spending christmas with a drunk man beside him who looked like he hadn't in a decent shower since the summer. james didn't care now though. what did looks even matter? people eventually grew old and looks would fade. what would james be when he didn't have his appearance? that was how he got girls. he had his charm but that didn't mean anything if he couldn't back it up with his personality.

james' blue eyes scanned the room and he knew he had to be hallucinating when he saw a woman who looked like emeline at the same bar as him. it really couldn't be her. she must be at home with tucker now. she had a son too. what was she doing here? james shook his head as he ran a hand through his hair. james stood up. he decided to approach the girl. hey if she looked like emeline, he would take that. as he got closer and got a better view, he realized that it was her. what the hell? james took the seat next to her resting his head on the palm of his bent elbow. "what the bloody hell are you doing here? shouldn't you be at home with tucker and trenton?" james wasn't asking this sarcastically for once. he was being serious when he wanted to know why she was here. "this is for people who are unwanted on christmas eve!" james threw his hands in the air as the stool he had been sitting on started to lose it's balance. james felt the chair slip from underneath his bottom but he was able to grab onto the table managing to keep his center. he looked up at her the charm still in his eyes and slight smile. the black tie he was wearing was untied and his his shirt a wrinkled mess.

tag: emeline bletchley
word count: 1767
lyric credit: rihanna ft. eminem
notes: i told you i'd post <33

[emeline l. bletchley]

[/color] james potter
word count • 1511
thread setting • 2026 just before christmas; late night at a pub
listening too • nothing atm
notes • wahoo
credit • too moi![/ul]

the last place that Emeline thought she would be was in a bar, especially on Christmas night. things in her life had finally been going right for her lately. she had a beautiful baby boy and was just about to be Mrs Tucker Weasley, there was nothing more that she could really ask for. Tucker had been the best possible thing to happen to her, not only because it made her want to be a better person but also because he helped get her out of her arranged marriage to Alec Andanov. how her parents had thought she was going to spend the rest of her life married to him was beyond her but her mother had expected her too. it was amazing that she had been able to get out of it, but thanks to Tucker she had. now things had blown up and she really didn't know what to do. part of her wanted to go back home and work things out with Tucker. to apologize for leaving and prove to him just how much she loved him and only him. they were amazing together and Emeline knew that he had to know this, or he wouldn't have been with her as long as it was. even if he didn't completely trust James or even her around James, he had to know there was something deep between them. they had been together since she was sixteen years old, love like that didn't just go away because of a few smiles between two people who had a past. she had simply tried to be friendly with James because regardless of anything else he was related to Tucker and she had always known that she'd be around him at family events. besides, Emeline had put things with James behind her, ever since she had come clean with Tucker about everything she had put James in her past where he belonged. though she wasn't exactly close with him, even she had noticed his lack of presences at the family events. whether he was actually that busy or was just making excuses she wasn't sure but each time he did manage to show up he always looked like he had a rough night. she knew that his career was very demanding, being a professional quidditch player, but he hadn't seemed to change much since their Hogwarts days. from as far as she had gathered he had yet to settle down and was still just as much of a player. so, she had figured perhaps being friendly to him would help cheer him up. she hadn't meant to seem like she was flirting with him, she just wanted him to be in a better mood. he was with his family after all and it was Christmas, no one needed to be depressed on Christmas. only, it had come around to bite her in the arse and instead of being at home with Tucker and their new born son, she was in a pub with a drink in her hand watching James Potter cross the room towards her.

taking a sip from her drink it was weird how watching him cross the room made her think about her Hogwarts days. he was a big part of her past, even if she didn't always want to admit that. hell, he was an even bigger part of her past then Carter was and Carter was the one guy that she thought most about. not in the sense that most people would think about their ex boyfriends, but every time she would do something wrong or something in her life would mess up his harsh words always popped up in her mind. that had been the last time she had actually ever wasted words or time on Carter Goldstein and if she had her way it would remain that way forever. she would make sure her children were aware to stay away from anything with the last name Goldstein because they didn't deserve them. James, though, had been a part of her life since she was fourteen years old and there was no forgetting him really. she still remembered the day she had practically begged the Professor to pick someone else to tutor James. it hadn't worked of course and she had all but stormed out of the room wanting to throw a hissy fit but doing it anyways because of the extra credit she was promised. that night though, she had saw a different side of James and she had went from hating him to rather enjoying him. it had been the start of their very secret relationship type ordeal where they enjoyed each other in several places they shouldn't have. that was until the incident happened that had changed everything and put her right back to hating James Potter. even if she hated him though, she was never good at being alone with him and he did have his moments where he had her doubting her hate for him. besides, even if it wasn't the best solution, they were there for one another whenever they needed someone. they could have been a great couple, if they could actually manage to get along outside of the bedroom. sure the making up from their fighting would be amazing, but they never managed to venture down that path. out of all of the things they had done they had never tried the couple thing. that didn't mean though that the thought hadn't crossed her mind. at more then one point in her life she had considered the what ifs when it came to him, but she always came to the conclusion that she wasn't the girl to tame James. sure they might have been good together for so long, but then some other girl would eventually come along and his attention would waver. she might have been okay with being the girl he cheated with but not the girl he cheated on, though generally she wasn't in the knowledge that she was that girl.

taking another sip of her drink, realizing that it was half gone as the bartender approached and gave her another. smiling in thanks at him she turned her gaze and looked at James as he spoke. oh this was going to be classic explaining it to him. finishing off her drink she set it down on the bar and licked the remainder off her lips, before running her hand through her hair. "thats a good question." she murmured looking away from him with a heavy sigh. her gaze immediately lifted to him at his next statement as she blinked at him. "you think your not wanted?" merlin, that had to be something new coming from James. "well, go and tell that to Tucker will you." shaking her head she picked up her glass staring down at the ice cubes. "Tucker and i got into a fight. he doesn't trust me. the engagement is off." Emeline didn't think that he needed to know why they were fighting or that it was over him. even if it would boost his ego she was sure of that. "what on earth makes you think you aren't wanted James?" her voice turned softer as she turned her head once again and looked at him. "your a Professional Quidditch player for merlin's sake. thousands of people scream out your name all the time and i am sure you get plenty of girls." placing her hand over her mouth as she saw him start to fall, first out of shock and then trying not to laugh. "nice save there. are you okay?" she laughed softly unable to miss the slight smile and charm still in his eyes as she placed her hand on his shoulder. standing up without much thought she fixed his tie, undoing it so it hung around his neck. running her hands over his shirt to flatten out the wrinkles then stopping once she realized what she was doing. "sorry." she muttered looking up at him. "did you want to grab a booth or something? or perhaps i can help you into another stool?" standing before him, she swallowed. she wasn't doing to good at being alone with him. "seems like those Quidditch skills are coming in handy Mr Potter." she teased bending down and picking up the chair that had fallen over. having only one drink, she really wasn't feeling the affects of anything. she was more so affected by James and his presences then she was by the alcohol she was drinking. Emeline should have listened to the part of her that had wanted to go home and back to Tucker, because soon she would be in more trouble then she could afford..

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[james s. potter]

baby, without you, i’m nothing, i’m so lost, hug me --- *
THEN TELL ME HOW UGLY I AM BUT THAT YOU'LL ALWAYS LOVE ME

had james imagined his life this way when he was a seventh year at hogwarts? he hadn't known what to think. he had been a player of girls. a heart breaker. it didn't matter who she was or what her feelings meant. james couldn't go back to that time but he did look back on it. how could he have been so stupid. why had he just not found the right girl? it didn't even have to be the right girl, just a girl who could have made him happy. a girl who would have shown him the ways. that didn't happen though. that was why on christmas night he was at this pub with other men whose life wasn't going anywhere. those girls that he had played in the past had found other men and were tonight spending it with her family. she had someone special and maybe even children she had tucked in. it seemed like everything had ended up with a good life except him. even emeline bletchley. that girl well now that woman was still in his life. he thought after hogwarts that he wouldn't have to see her again but he had to. she was now with his cousin and it wasn't that james was sick of her (sometimes he was) but the two were bad with each other. it was like fire and ice, the collision of the two was never good. it was either the screaming of one another in a fight or on a bed. the two were the same people. as much as they didn't want to admit that they were both people with very obnoxious personalities. they didn't stand for anyone to walk on them. it was two dynamic people. he didn't understand when she had been assigned to tutor him. she was a year younger than he was. was he really that stupid that he needed a girl who was younger than him to teach him? at first, he had been proven wrong but after a few nights, there wasn't much learning. the only learning that james had done was the curves of emeline's body and what turned her on. it was all physical. while they did seem to have chemistry, if the two were to speak to one another james didn't think that he would want to listen to her. the two were older now. he was twenty-two, she was twenty-one. james knew better than to act like he was seventeen again. believe it or not but james had to hold himself back from who he had been. his cousin loved her and he could tell when she was with him that she was different. it had to be love if even james potter could see it...but the point was that james was careful. he made sure to not use any of his charms. over the years, he had learned how to charm emeline. she fell easily for him and he fell easily for her. the two had to use self control whenever they were around each other. it didn't matter what memories came flooding into james' head. it was over. emeline had found a man who loved her and not just for her body. it was better this way for the both of them. he didn't know what she felt about him now but any temptation would have to be removed. james had to convince him every time that he saw her but she was with his cousin. he hadn't minded stealing emeline from any other guy but tucker was his cousin. they had bro code between each other.

he didn't understand what she was doing here tonight. of all the nights that he had expected to see someone here, she was the last person. he had to make sure that it wasn't the alcohol that was clouding his perception and that it was actually emeline here now. he couldn't believe that. his mind was playing some freaky mind tricks on him because this woman really did look like her. he looked down at his drink as a thought of someone spiking his drink came up. his body moved closer and closer to the figure until finally he was near her. he moved his stool closer to her before speaking to her. he listened but only catching a few words. a fight on christmas? over what? "trust you with whatttt?" james slurred. emeline had changed since hogwarts. james, not so much but he could see the change that had occurred with emeline. "shut up, you're going to be mrs. emeline weasley. tuck really loves you." james and tucker weren't the closest but he had known since they were young that he had an eye for emeline. she had been too caught up with a fool to notice what a great guy tucker was. if james had not gotten i the way, he was sure that many girls could have found a great guy before. he raised one of his eyebrows at her before turning away. "i'm alone on christmas."

[/color] he ran one of his hands through his hair. his brown wasn't as long as it used to be but it was still a habit that he had. he chuckled putting his hand up for another drink. "that's funny. girls want me. i get girls but is she ever the right girl?" james held the shot in his hand. he lifted it up and felt the liquid run down his throat. he was sure that she would know the answer to his question. he felt himself fall off the stool but had been able to save himself. james nodded at her question. his eyes looked down at her hands. he watched as she slightly cleaned him up. he looked up to see her face and he had to control himself. she would never know how hard it was for james to hold back but with all his might he had to. he had made too many mistakes when he was drunk but he had never been able to learn his lesson. this was a time where james was aware that he had to be careful. since the two had left hogwarts, james and emeline had never spent any time alone. everyone knew that they didn't get along but the two both knew that they weren't in control when they were together. "that's one thing i had going for me." james didn't know what was going to happen now they were together alone. it had been so long, the two were now grown adults. they were more responsible now. he shrugged at her question about moving. she was an engaged woman, she wasn't going to mess with james. it was two people who knew each other at a pub tonight. it didn't matter what the possibilities were that were running through james' head, emeline was not going to do anything with him.

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[emeline l. bletchley]

[/color] james potter
word count • 1485
thread setting • 2027 just before christmas; late night at a pub
listening too • nothing atm
notes • sorry for the shortness and wait! <3
credit • too moi![/ul]

there had been many times in Emeline's life where she wasn't quite sure how things would turn out for her. so many things that had changed her, some of those things involving the man that was currently sitting next to her. James was never exactly someone that was good for Emeline, their relationship from the beginning had been toxic. both of them constantly put up the front that they couldn't stand one another, yet they always wound up back in each others arms one way or another. it was toxic, they both knew it but that never seemed to stop them. though it was clear to see that they had both been through a ton and oddly enough it was together that they got through it. perhaps it wasn't the best solution but it worked for them for the moment in time. as much as Emeline claimed she didn't like James, her feelings for her had always been rather confusing. she could talk to him over things that she couldn't talk about with other people, even if it usually stared out in a fight. it was a form of venting and it always seemed to help in the end. it was almost like sleeping with him pulled her right back to where she knew she needed to be. whether that was a good thing or not, it didn't matter. separately and as a pair they had both come a long way but they both knew that they'd never work as more then what they were. even putting friends as their title was stretching it a bit but in a sense thats what they were. they messed each others lives up but also straightened things out at times as well. it was weird for her, whenever James was down or wasn't himself she herself felt bad and had an urge to help him fix it. not that she did, she wouldn't have a clue on how to go about helping him without him catching on thats what she was doing but it didn't change things. their history was entertaining enough to be a novel, an erotic novel of course, but a novel at least. it was long and extensive. included drama, a bit of heart ache on her part and then there was the lust and chemistry. it was most definitely explosive and the novel would probably be a best seller, only there would never be a sequel.

things between them had ended back in his seventh year, it was best that way to be honest. he left Hogwarts and Emeline had been too focused on things with Tucker. without James Potter as a walking temptation in the corridors, things had for once went smoothly in her life. not that James was to blame for the rocky road of her life, but he was definitely the cause of a few bumps and twists. Emeline should have predicted that it wouldn't be that easy though, after all Tucker is a Weasley and wherever the Weasley's may be the Potter's are close as well. being around him though wasn't as hard as it use to be. with Tucker by her side honestly anything felt possible. even being around James and not fighting with him or not winding up in bed with him. of course usually when she was around him there was a dozen other people there as well but she was sure her resistances towards him had grown. this had been the first occurrences where she was really only with him though, and the timing couldn't have been worse. somewhere the gods of fate were playing a cruel joke on her, she just knew it. she really had to hold in her laugh at his slurred words, either his drink was really strong or this wasn't the first one he had that night. though she wasn't exactly sure how to answer his question. if she told him the truth, the odds of him believing her were slim. though the odds of him remembering this were even slimmer so she really didn't have anything to loose. "he doesn't trust me around you." she answered simply, though it was far from simple. "he knows about our history and apparently laughing and smiling when i am around you or talking to you at the family gatherings means we are sleeping together again." her blue eyes rolled at this. if Tucker even understood a shred of her history with James, then he'd know how stupid his theory was. laughing and smiling around James never equaled them sleeping together, that usually involved fighting and arguing. "so according to your cousin your plenty wanted by his fiance." Emeline said as she looked over at him. perhaps James had always been wanted by her, but she had learned to control those urges and with Tucker in her life they barely existed anymore.

holding up her hand so that James could see she was no longer wearing her engagement ring she shook her head. "as it stands, i'll be remaining Emeline Bletchley for a little while longer." she knew her parents would adore this. she gave up an engagement to Alec to run away with a Weasley and now it was all exploding into little pieces. her mother had disowned her but her father still kept in touch and she was still his little girl to him. not that she fit in that world anymore, she wasn't the same little pureblood that she was when she was in Hogwarts. "that doesn't make you unwanted James. that makes you single and if i am not mistaken, that's the way you use to prefer it." raising her eyebrow as she looked at him then shaking her head. "you were surrounded by dozens of people yesterday, and now you have my company. that doesn't exactly make you alone either." even if her company wasn't exactly a good thing, he had it for the time being. "when you pick the easiest girls out of the bunch James, the ones that only want you for the fame or glory of sleeping with James Potter then of course she isn't going to be the right girl." it felt weird talking about his girl problems with him but if it was keeping the conversation flowing then she'd try her best to help him. he was intoxicated, he wouldn't remember her trying anyways. well, at least she hoped he wouldn't or else he might have a hissy fit when he woke up. "ever think that maybe your looking in all the wrong places? there were several girls that could have been the one for you when we were back in school, girls who probably still have feelings for you, that you just let get away." pointing out his issue probably wasn't going to help things but it was the truth. "girls that were probably right in front of you the entire time and you didn't even notice." though it may have seemed like she was referring to herself she wasn't. maybe at one point she would have wanted something more with James but eventually she saw their relationship for what it was. toxic. it had been a long time since Emeline had been that close to James and when he looked at her, she hadn't missed the way her heart started beating rapidly in her chest. even if she mentally cursed herself for it because nothing would happen. nothing could happen between them ever again. tonight had to be one night where their history didn't repeat itself. needing to create space between them Emeline swallowed the remainder of her drink and then looked around the pub for a booth. leading James over to the closest one, Emeline waited for him to sit down in case he missed and fell again. once he was safely in she sat down across from him, smoothing her skirt beneath the table and crossing her legs. "its one thing you have going for you, not had. without your Quidditch Skills, where would you be?" Emeline asked him, trying to bring the conversation to something that would control the flare of whatever it was that went on between them. Quidditch had to work, even if it was just reminding her of what said sport did to his body. looking over at the bar Emeline waved for two fresh drinks to be brought over to them. alcohol, a bad mix for them but she needed something to calm her frayed nerves.

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