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[lucas a. disney]

hello mystery receiver,

i’m so so so so sorry if this disturbs you from something, i just asked pecklesby to deliver the owl to whoever he could find, so i guess you’re lucky in some way! but, basically, this is being sent in hope that someone can cheer me up. see, usually i’m happy go lucky and totally cheerful, but today is always a bad day for me. eleventh of january, well… i don’t know if i can talk about it, it’s too difficult, even now, after so long. but please help.

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from l.

[jolene i. disney]

dear lucas,

ipecklesby must have known you were in trouble! and from your handwriting i could tell it was you. i miss you bro. but enough about that, i know it's hard but it gets better along the way, it's that what you always tell me? take your own advice luc, i'm sure it will help. always here for you.

with love,
joey

[lucas a. disney]

hey joey,

mm, i am, well, just going mad with my thoughts, you know me, throwing stuff at walls and what not. i'm glad he got to you, you completely understand me. i know i always tell you that, but i guess i'm lying, it's just, well joey it's just every year on this day i can't help but remember what happened those years ago, and it's like twenty years ago now, and i still can't forgive or forget. i miss her incredibly, and well, i'm just angry again, and upset, and i'm afraid that i might do something reckless.

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love lucas.

[jolene i. disney]

dear lucas,

he does know me quiet well. i understand lucas. i mean i kinda go through the same thing expect i don't have one where i think of what happened, it remember every night, and every morning, and every afternoon. because it happened not once but multiple times. i guess maybe when we're older and we have wrinkles and stuff we'll will forget about it. at least you got to meet her lucas, that's all that matters. you got to know her, and she got to hold you in her arms. the way she went was tragic no one would say otherwise but lived long enough to see you take your first steps. and like you tell me, she's watching over you.

with love,
joey

[lucas a. disney]

hey joey,

i know, it must be so much worse for you ): i don't think i could bare it, i mean i'm so upbeat most of the time, but it's just this day. how are you feeling anyway? has any of it got any better? have the bad dreams stopped? i worry about you so much all the time, i want to come give you a hug my darling. yeah, i guess that's the positive side, i just look at her picture sometimes and wonder what she'd think of me now, whether she'd be proud. i mean she had no idea about the magic or anything like that, but i'm not entirely sure that would have gone down well in the house.

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love lucas.

[jolene i. disney]

dear lucas,

it is bad but i live with it. i learn to at least. it's the only thing i could do. just down and sad really, no it hasn't gotten any better, the dreams just keep getting worse and worse like they can't stop coming. i guess it's because i haven't been intamate with a boy in a long time, i know you don't like to hear that stuff but it keeps the bad dreams away. i miss you too luc, i wish you worked at hogwarts so i could see you more often. oh lucas adrien disney! she would be so proud of you! you are a wonderful name and you have taken care of a little girl like she was your own. sometimes for the fun of it i tell people i have three dads. but since you are so much younger than kevin and ralph you will always be my uber protective brother that i can turn to with anything. if your mother had lived passed that day she would have sent you away to learn magic and things. i still remember the day you told me, how could i forget? i screamed so loud, it's funny now that i look back at it. i'm glad that our bad pasts have happened though, at least one good thing came out of this mess. you became my brother.

with love,
joey

[lucas a. disney]

hey joey,

aww joey, have you told anyone at the school about it? i mean they could probably help, go to the hospital wing or something. oh god, you're still doing that? that's still your way of solving things? you're right that i don't like it at all, there must be a better way to make you feel alright. ah, well there's something there, i'm hoping to try and get the position of apparition instructor in the near future so you might be seeing me soon if my application to do so gets accepted. you have no idea how much it means to me that you care about me so much, i remember the first day we met haha, and you were like call me joey and immediately we were siblings - it was wonderful. ah, i remember, you didn't know what magic was at all - it was amazing being able to tell you about my world.

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love lucas.

[jolene i. disney]

dear lucas,

No I haven’t told any adult about it. I believe the professors know just how they knew back at beauxbaton but no adult. Going to the hospital wing will only make it seem like I can’t handle things and I can, I just need time to be able to get better. Yes I am lucas, you know that it helps to get him off my mind. I know you want me to wear a chastity belt and I will, when I am able to find another way to get him off my mind. No for now there isn’t unfortunately. Oh lucas I would love for you to teach such! I miss you so much, more than you can imagine. I will always care for you just how you will always care for me. We’re siblings lucas we need to watch out for each other, after all kev and ral aren’t getting any younger. Don’t tell them I said that, you know how sensitive Daddy Ralph is with his age. Ah yes the first day, what I hassle. The police cars and everything, the signing of papers, all because I had shown a tiny spec of magic the day before and you telling me about that world, that was mind blowing. I couldn’t have learned about this world from a better seventeen year old at the time.

with love,
joey