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[adalynn b. dimitrov]

[/color] alec andanov
thread setting ∞ abandoned classroom; late day
word count ∞ 1249
playing on itunes ∞ last kiss by tswift
notes ∞ D: this post is gonna be sad!
credit ∞ too moi![/ul]

another pair of skinny blue jeans flew across the otherwise empty room, followed by a frustrated growl and the stomp of a foot. nothing fit anymore. not a single thing. well, that wasn't exactly true but it felt like nothing fit anymore. of course the stretch pants still fit but she couldn't leave the dorms wearing those. then everyone who didn't already think something was up would know something was up because Sienna Dimitrov didn't go anywhere without looking her best. it had to be at least twenty pairs of jeans that she had tried on and was beyond frustrated with the fact that none of them would do up. how was she suppose to look amazing when none of her good clothes fit? huffing and sitting down upon her bed she looked around the room that looked as though a tornado had gone through it. her clothes were astrew all over the room, everything from her favorite jeans right down to her favorite shirt. none of her jeans would do up and none of her shirts, especially her favorite one hid the bump that was her stomach. none of them would do. thankfully she had a few of Alec's shirts that she could wear but she didn't think today was the day to be wearing them. as much as she loved Alec and she did, more then she wanted to admit even to herself, she knew it was time that she was honest with herself and him. she wanted more then anything for the baby she was carrying to be his, for things to finally be simple so she could spend her life with him. there was no way the Lestrange's would make her marry Adrik if she was pregnant with another man's child. it would disgrace them and she could be happy with Alec, she knew she could be. he had never and would never hurt her. however, fate was throwing her one hell of a curve ball and the child wasn't his. Sienna had known for a few weeks now but really didn't want to believe it herself. she was so happy with Alec and he treated her amazingly well, not to mention that he would make an amazing father to the child she was caring. he cared for the baby even now and that alone melted Sienna's heart beyond words. he was an amazing man and Sienna hated that she hadn't met him before Adrik.

they were utterly perfect for one another and understood one another like no body else. of course she had never once told him how she felt about him, it was too much. for something that was just meant to be a one time thing had took her completely off guard and now she was so far in over her head that she knew no body could get out without being hurt. sighing and reaching for her wand, Sienna flicked it at the room watching as the clothes all piled back into her trunk. getting up off her bed she walked over to her wardrobe and got out one of her uniform skirts, since they were the only thing that fit right now given that they were adjustable. sliding out of the pajamas she was wearing, tugging on a pair of lace boy shorts with a matching bra. blinking and looking down at her chest, surprised by the amount of cleavage that she had now. not that she didn't always have nice cleavage but now, it was much more visible. moving to step in front of the mirror and standing sideways she looked at her reflection. able to see the bump that was upon her stomach but her eyes were drawn to her own chest with amazement. surprised that she had even fit into her bra, it was definite proof that she needed to go shopping before nothing she owned fit. at least now she had something to steal attention away from the bump on her stomach, for the time being anyways. she was sure these were something that Alec would enjoy greatly, but that thought alone made her frown since she wasn't sure just how long he would get to enjoy them. chewing on the inside of her cheek Sienna walked back to her trunk and dug out a shirt she thought would fit. with a nice dipping vee neck to show off her newest asset, maybe hoping to distract Alec from the mood she was in. grabbing a sweater, lucky for her it was the middle of winter so she could get away with wearing them. eyeing the high heels that she couldn't wait to wear again well grabbing a pair of flats not wanting to risk endangering the unborn child she was carrying. there were enough girls at Hogwarts that didn't like her that it would just take a single push and she could loose the baby and then she'd be put into Azkaban for sure for murdering said girl.

sitting down upon her bed once again and muttering a spell to straighten out her hair, since Alec liked it better that way. looking over at the mirror at her finished reflection making sure that nothing drew attention to her stomach, though her chest was kinda hard to miss. tugging on her sweater as she left the dorms making her way through the Common Room and out into the dungeons. heading to meet up with her boyfriend in the abandoned classrooms. sitting down upon one of the desks when she made it there, swinging her legs back and forth well she waited for Alec to arrive. dreading the conversation that was to come but excited to see him. everything she did today she was going to do right, because it was probably going to be the last time that she got to do any of them. when she kissed him she was going to make sure it counted. the only thing she couldn't do was confess how she felt about him, that wouldn't help either of them and it was best if he never knew. it would do no body any good for her to tell him, for it wasn't as though anything could be more between them. they had known this when they had started dating. of course Sienna hadn't guessed that her feelings for him would grow even deeper. she should have prepared herself for that but she had been so caught up in being happy again that it had blindsided her. the only thing she could really say that she had done right was in telling Alec that the baby could be his or Adrik's. of course she skipped out on the details but at least she had warned him that the baby might not be his. that hadn't kept him from being so unbelievably amazing when it came to the baby, which was only going to make everything so much harder. hearing the door open Sienna looked over her shoulder and smiled at Alec. "hello boyfriend." offering him a warm and inviting smile, something that was so easy whenever he was around. Alec could make her forget all her worries and woes without even doing anything, something that made her more then aware of how important it was to let him go now before she did something foolish.

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[alecksander m. andanov]

*----- take me with you, i start to miss you

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to be in love with someone was something of great sensitivity. it required sensitivity as well, something alecksander andanov didn’t quite acknowledge the existence of within him. to be in love with someone was to admit weakness, to allow vulnerability, to let someone have a power over you. alec andanov was a pureblood. purebloods did not fall in love, nor did they admit weakness. to be pureblood was to be strong. it was to have power, to be supreme over all others. one could not be held above others if they were weak. one could not have the power alec craved by being weak. his father taught him that from a very young age. he was never to show weakness, never to admit defeat, and never allow his feelings to get in the way of his success. so from a young age, alec was against the idea of love. his family did not spoil him with attention the way they spoiled him with material things. he always got everything he wanted, but never what he honestly needed. he was never a whiny child, unless it came to him not getting something he wanted. then he became demanding. but he knew not to bother his father or mother when they were busy. he did not miss them the way most children did when their parents were away. once could not miss what they never had. feelings were never a good topic for alec to elaborate on. as far as anyone was concerned, alec andanov didn’t have feelings. he was as cold as ice, as hard as stone and absolutely emotionless. no one was able to crack through the icy exterior, simply because there was nothing else on the interior to crack into. he was exactly the same inside as he was on the out, and there was no one that could change that. he learned his lesson years ago. the first time he ever let someone in had been the last, seeing as she proceeded to hurt feelings he never should’ve let show. from then on, for all intents and purposes, alec didn’t have feelings. his relationship with emeline was a lapse of judgment, and he had no desire to repeat past mistakes. that was why it was in the past. it needed to stay there. so for sixteen years, not counting that momentary lapse of judgment, alec andanov was emotionless, not showing any feelings to those outside his inner circle, and not allowing any girls to anywhere close to him for more than a twenty four hour period. should a girl be close to him for more than one single day, she became a liability. either that, or she was exceedingly rare, and became an exception to the rules that governed alec’s life. girls to him were nothing but entertainment, there to keep him amused and for him to play with. many a time alec had taken pride in toying with a girl’s emotions. faking smiles, whispering falsely sweet words to them, making them think they were special, making them believe he cared, only to be shattered at the snap of his fingers and the change of his mood. love to him was a joke, and one that was severely funny. it was not to be taken seriously, the way some people believed it not to be taken lightly. that was all it was to him: amusing.

that was alec’s firm belief for sixteen straight years. durmstrang girls bored him after being around for five years. there was nothing exciting about them, nothing new. they were the same girls that had been around since first year, only with bigger chests and less innocence, some of them by alec’s doing. there was nothing he hadn’t seen- well, of those he deemed worthy of course. unless they were blonde and pureblood, then they had absolutely no chance of being with him. he’d gone through most of the older pureblood girls in durmstrang, it seemed. so going to hogwarts seemed like a blessing to him. there would be scads of new purebloods there for him to play with. there was hadley mulciber, who was absolutely gorgeous, no matter her innocence, or her dark haired boyfriend. alec found her innocence almost appealing, in a way. there was something about her that was enticing, but alec would never go near her, unless she came to him first. no matter her beauty, if her boyfriend was someone that her father set her up with, then he had no intention of splitting them up. dante mulciber was a scary person, even to alec. there was the absolutely gorgeous flint girl, who alec found to be more than attractive. she was beautiful in every single way possible, and he had half a mind to claim her for himself. however, she was being married off to lucian carrow, and again, he had no intention of immersing himself in amycus carrow’s plans. so she was off limits. curiously, molly burns (he refused to call her by her filthy blood traitor name; she was above that) had a bit of his attention. the girl was the most sought after girl in slytherin house and easily one of the most beautiful. had he not known her name, alec would’ve already had her in his grasp. however, she was a weasley by birth, despite the way she carried herself. weasley children were not to be touched. she was still absolutely beautiful, alec would give that much to her. but the only two that truly caught alec’s attention and held it were arietta urquhart and adalynn volkov. he refused to speak of arietta, and denied any feelings he had in the past for her. people could talk all they wanted about how they acted around each other in private, but alec would deny that it was an ongoing affair. she made her choice. the school believed she was head over heels in love with kaden dobrev, alec’s best mate. if that was what she wanted them to believe, then so be it. alec was moving on. and so he had. for years, alec found adalynn dimitrov to be attractive, despite her blood status. everyone presumed her a muggleborn, alec included. still, she carried herself differently, as if she was a pureblood. alec rarely gave her the time of day, but when he did, she was more than worth his attention. she was witty, and could carry on a conversation. her beauty was beyond compare. but when she was announced to be engaged to adrik lestrange, alec was immediately curious. it turned out that adalynn was pureblood- the daughter of gabriel and the late aurora volkov. once it was announced, everyone could see the resemblance the girl had to her late mother, who was still missing and presumed dead, to this day. from then on, adalynn was on alec’s list, and he would almost stop at nothing to get her. their two year game of cat and mouse came to an end over the summer, and he finally acquired the one girl he never thought he would have.

since then, things with adalynn had… well, they weren’t just sleeping with each other anymore. it was far more than that. that was how it started, of course, before she spurned adrik for what ever her reason was, and before arietta foolishly asked him to fight his best friend for her. once she was out of the picture, alec had all the room in the world to allow adalynn to be more than just another girl to him. she offered to make things between them official… well, sort of. she offered for them to publicly date, all the while only sleeping with each other behind closed doors. alec countered with a different offer- to actually date each other. that was how things had been for months. despite the fact that adalynn was pregnant, alec stayed with her, and felt himself falling for the girl. even if she was betrothed to someone else, she was his when they were together, and no one else could claim her. he never meant to have these feelings for her, but he did, none the less, and there was no going back. he never asked questions about her baby, just accepting that it was his, and he treated it as such. the idea of being a father absolutely petrified him, but he didn’t let that show. he was sure that it was even scarier for adalynn, seeing as she was carrying the child. he was almost positive that once people knew she was pregnant, her engagement to adrik lestrange would end, and their parents would force (though you could barely call it forcing) them to get married as soon as possible. at that point, all thoughts of arietta would be gone, and she would be nothing more than a distant memory to him, his feelings a shadow of what he could feel for adalynn over the years. it could be easy and effortless, as things should’ve been from the beginning. neither of them would have to marry someone they didn’t want to, and their parents could be happy. alec would eventually speak with one of the lestrange’s about an arrangement between one of their children and one of theirs, just to pacify adalynn’s grandfather. if he could make the arrangement pass from aurora to adalynn, then he could surely pass the arrangement to one of his children, couldn’t they? maybe it would be their eldest, the one that adalynn was pregnant with at the current time. it didn’t quite matter, did it? all that mattered was the present. they could deal with the future when it came. at the current time, they were supposed to meet in one of the many abandoned classrooms, and alec was running late. he skipped steps getting up to the fifth floor, and eventually found the classroom she was sitting in. she looked beautiful, as per usual. he smiled at the word boyfriend, in a way he never thought he could. “good afternoon, my lovely girlfriend.” he said, coming behind her and placing his hands on her stomach. he placed a light kiss on the side of her head, smiling as he did so. “this whole pregnancy thing is working for you love. that whole thing about a glow? well, it’s true. you’re absolutely radiant.” he said, resting his head on her shoulder. “how do you feel today?” he asked, ever the concerned parent. he was getting used to asking her that whenever they saw each other, just to make sure she was doing well.

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tagged: adalynn dimitrov <3
words: 1768
lyrics: cross my heart - mariana's trench
notes: i'm sad : (
credit: made it m'self. picture to caution.