GRENADE

[arietta e. urquhart]

ANY PERSON WOULD BE SANE ENOUGH TO KNOW------------------------
what you did was wrong

ever since alec had pronounced his love for her arietta just couldn't stop smiling. she couldn't bring herself to stop, it was much more difficult than it sounded. she had physically tried to stop smiling when standing in front of a mirror and she had honestly just looked horrible. her face would twitch and it was just too much to get into detail about. now a days however most of what arietta did was hold out that ring around her neck, in a beautiful silver necklace, a ring so suited for her only someone close to her wouldn't been able to pick it out. alec did make beautiful choices. she let her head tilt slightly to the side as she lifted the rings. the one her finger was from dobrev and lord did she really not like that boy. he was everything she didn't want in a man, precisely just because he wasn't alec. that simple fact made her angry in levels that were just too high to count. the ring on her hand would have made anyone die with joy but to get it was just something standing in the way of the love she felt for alec. alec's ring was classy and fit her personality almost perfectly while on the other hand her fiancée's looked like he just grabbed it off a rack at a supermarket. well arietta knew that wasn't true but she had no shame in thinking it. she hated that boy anyway. why had her parents been so stupid in putting her in an engagement much less make the boy propose in the middle of the more crowded hallway of life? alec had been more civil and he had done it privately, though he really didn't have a choice on that, it had been almost too perfect that she had become speechless. she of coruse had accepted the ring and had jumped into his arms, arietta closed her eyes to remember the moment, her excitement and everything, this meant so much to her, it meant that he was going to try anthing in power to get out of that horrible engagement to dobrev and make her normal again, though she had really calmed down since alec told her he loved her. that feeling she knew nothing would be able to compare to it, maybe when she got married to alec and then holding their first child - no arietta couldn't think those thoughts yet as there was always that possibility that they wouldn't be able to be together, that she would be with dobrev for the rest of her life. screw that she would rather be disowned than married that whole thing. she refused to be mrs. arietta dobrev, it sounded so wrong, arietta andanov sounded so much better in her ears, plus it had the whole aa thing going on which she secretly adored since alec had it too. she smiled a little and bit her lip, she let the ring fall and placed her shirt over it. it was supposed to be a secret after all.

it was about time that she needed to start her prefect rounds. she didn't want to however, she rather sit in her dorm room and think up more thoughts of alec and the ring around her neck, the beautiful diamond ring with a silver strand, little diamonds around while dobrev a disgusting bronze strand with one diamond ring. she didn't like it at all but that's been mentioned before. she walked to the common room and quickly searched for her boyfriend, she stopped a second, her real fiancée. she spotted dobrev for half a second and quickly ducked out of the common room before he could come speak to her and she would slap him across the face, well she couldn't that in public but god did she want to, she would give anything up, anything but alec, to be able to slap him right across the face as hard as she could. she walked up a few stairs to the second floor, she had to stop a little, this was where she had first talked to james, when they had spoken for a few seconds. then they had developed a sort of friendship to say the least, she looked around again memories floated into her mind. though she had always imagined she'd lose her virginity to someone she would marry and was in love with, her life hadn't turned out so bad. she had fallen in love with someone so much better than james, she was making love to someone better than james she didn't need james. unfortunately she found herself looking right at him. having been lost in her own thoughts she had believe that the james she was seeing was in her mind but he hadn't been. she was starring at him. where was alec when she needed him the most? she needed to be brave she could out talk him any day plus she was sure that he wasn't that smart up there, at least he wasn't the best she ever had down there. she smiled the champion of all the fake smiles at him. "hello james,"

[/color] her voice was smooth, almost like she was hiding an explosive behind her back just for him, she hoped it would edge him slightly. "how have you been?"[/color] she took half a step towards him then thought against it, she could see the tip of her wand inside her boot, if anything she would curse the living day lights out of him, she knew alec would be rather proud of her for doing that. she wasn't going to think twice if she needed to.
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tag: james potter
word count: 1100 words
outfit: clicky the linky!
lyrics: lyrics to me because i'm awesome like that XD
on itunes: grenade by bruno mars
credit: everything to me,
notes: -giggles hysterically-

[james s. potter]

james didn't know what was going on in his life anymore. ever since that night when jossy had broke up with him, james had been a mess. he had always been a hot mess but now he had broken down. he was a plain mess that no one wanted to clean up. he couldn't see anyone wanting to help him. he had screwed up. he had no idea that his seventh year would turn out this way. in the beginning, he had thought that this was going to be his year. he was going to have fun and leave hogwarts proud of what he did. he had become prefect and quidditch captain, it had to be a good year right? wrong. james didn't know how he had abused the power that he had received. he realized that he abused his popularity. he was so used to sitting on a throne like the king of hogwarts now he was less than a first year.

james hadn't even been doing a lot of drinking. that was usually how he dealt with his problems. at seventeen, he was able to do whatever he wanted but he had to change something. he didn't know what but whatever he was doing, it wasn't working. he didn't think that he was a changed man but he had realized that he wasn't thirteen anymore. he wasn't that guy who could be cocky and get away with it. he was now seventeen. that meant so much more. he knew how disappointed his parents would be if they actually knew what james was up to at hogwarts. he hadn't of even thought of his mother who had been there for him since birth. all this time, james had never thought of ginny potter. james was a mama's boy inside. he loved his mother. why was he doing this to women? there had to be some psychological thing involved but he couldn't figure it out. he loved the women that he was close to in his life. he loved his mother, sister, cousins, aunts and grandma.

james ran a hand through his hair as he got back from going out. he had took the time to take a walk outside. it had been starting to get warmer. there was still snow on the ground but it was nice enough to take a walk. he took a brisk walk outside. he had been out there for a couple of hours even skipping dinner (it had to be a big deal if james skipped food). he had withdrawn from the outside world. he went to classes like normal then escaped to wherever after till late at night when he was sure his roommates were asleep. he didn't want to socialize with anyone. even in class, james sat at the back and no one pestered him. he wrinkled his hair as he stuffed his hands into the pockets of his jacket. he didn't know what he looked like right now. james had actually stopped caring about his looks. he threw on whatever was in his closet and he had done the same for tonight. no one said anything anymore. at first, there was talk around the school about him but it had eventually stopped. he had looked in the mirror in the morning seeing dark circles underneath his eyes and he didn't even bother to shave his face. the only noise that he could hear was his footsteps making his way back to his dorm. maybe he would get in early and attempt to get some sleep. knowing him, more thoughts would appear in his mind and he could be tossing around. his footsteps were slow and his eyes were toward the ground. anyone who passed him, james wouldn't bother to see who it was.

he was stopped when he heard a familiar voice. james didn't even bother to look up knowing who it was. etta. she had been a girl who james had been with when he was with jossy. it had been one night together and when etta confronted james on it, he flipped out about it. he didn't even give the girl a chance. he was sure that she had moved on from him. it had to be true. while girls were heartbroken, they moved on from him. he was another guy in their life and forgotten now. for all he knew, she could have a new guy in her life. probably. that's what usually happened. girls were hung over james thinking that they would never find another guy like him only to meet mr. right. it was like he was the guy who girls went to, to realize what amazing guys they did have right in front of them. now she was asking how he was? his answer was that he shrugged thinking that she would the answer to her question. why would she even ask? everyone knew about james potter. even if he wasn't talked about anymore, that had to mean something when he wasn't. it was like a new story every week about which girl he had been with. after jossy, james had attempted to be with other girls but he couldn't bring himself to be with any other girl. jossy and him had never done much but those girls were nothing. he realized these girls weren't worth his time and he wasn't worth theirs. he was using them like they were worth nothing. james brushed by her but continued to walk away. he didn't understand why she would want to talk to him. after all that he had done to her. she was another girl who he had burned in his life. all these girls walking past him were another reminder to james on why his life was now the way it was.

tag: etta!
word count: 1009
lyric credit: tony braxton
notes: dfdfjdkl;f had to make sad james.

[arietta e. urquhart]

ANY PERSON WOULD BE SANE ENOUGH TO KNOW------------------------
what you did was wrong

arietta didn't like who james was or what kind of a person he was. he was a player, he was the kind of person that messed with a girl's heart just to mess with her and then completely dumb her when he saw the chance. it was what he had done to her. he had played her like a guitar with silly strings and nothing more. she was just there for him to use once and then dump in the next place to use once only a string broke. of course it had to be fate that the string that james broke was one that was special to her, once that she should have kept for alec instead of james but it hadn't gone the way it had, if she hadn't given up what she shouldn't have, if she hadn't lusted after james, if she hadn't lived the first half of her sixth year she wouldn't be as happy as she was at that very moment with a smile that was from ear to ear that was so bright that she couldn't help but smile all the time. she would try to not smile in the mirror and it just wouldn't work. alec brought a smile to her face when ever he was around and even when he wasn't and he would crawl her thoughts and her mind she would still smile as bright as she could because he was there, vividly in her mind, his picture would show with his blonde hair, those bright green eyes, it made her go through those with drawl symptoms she hated so much. that was how it was though, every time that she wasn't with him felt like hours, days but she knew she needed to get better at it because honestly how could she last hours without him while he was at work if she couldn't last the few hours that she had her prefect duties when how in the world would she survive when he wasn't there even for a few days for his work or something of the other? oh arietta had no idea how she was going to be able to go through much more of this. but she needed too. she was a strong independent woman and though she was stronger with alec she was strong none the less.

how dare he just walk away from her? no she couldn't get angry at least on yet. she had been the victim here not him so then it was fine she would be the strong one her, she would be the one that was the bigger person since after all james could not be that. honestly arietta had no problem being the bigger person at least then she would have something over james other then the fact that he was the biggest jerk of life but that was something that many people already knew. everyone knew what he did, that he broke hearts that he didn't have a heart, everyone knew and even arietta knew but she hadn't listen. she hadn't wanted to listen to that, she wanted to believe that she was that one girl that could have actually changed james but that wasn't possible. she smirked at james a little. "aww."

[/color] she said walking right next to him and standing him front of him. she had no idea where she was going with this, none what so ever. "someone seems a little depressed,"[/color] and then she smiled, a big smile. she wasn't afraid of anything anymore, she was pushing buttons like nothing after all she had been held wand tip to a wall by the man she loved who had been in such a rage that it had been almost impossible for him to do anything but kill her but he hadn't killed her, he had kissed her and told her that they would get married, he would fix everything and well arietta had believe him and she had been in bliss for the next few hours. "i enjoy this james rather than the other one,"[/color] this time she smirked. she enjoyed pushing his buttons too much, she knew he was going to blow up completely and she needed to lower it up. if she continued to push his buttons like she was then it would be a matter of minutes before he just barked but then arietta was a slytherin she didn't bark unless she knew she was going to bite. if james presented her the opportunity arietta wasn't backing down.
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tag: james potter
word count: 911 words
outfit:here
lyrics: lyrics to me because i'm awesome like that XD
on itunes: grenade by bruno mars
credit: everything to me,
notes: oh they make me smile so big

[james s. potter]

the way that jossy had hurt his heart, he was beginning to realize how much he could be hurting other girls. he was so heartless in the past. those girls had genuine feelings that they had wanted to invest in him but he had thrown them out. with jossy, there wasn't supposed to be any feelings between them but there had been. it was so much worse what he had done. the two had made it clear in the beginning when the plan had been formed that this wasn't a real relationship. everyone would think it was but they knew that it wouldn't be. james had formed real feelings. he knew better than that. he didn't know why he couldn't control them. with other girls, he felt like he could give up feelings. he could stop that tap that run with his feelings for them. there was one thing that he didn't understand about etta. the two had never talked to each other actually. they had their snide remarks about one another on the quidditch field but that was about it. there had never been any conversation about getting to know one another. james wasn't the expert on love but wasn't that what love was based on. no one could completely fall in love with someone completely for their looks. there was no way that james would now call himself an expert on any situation involving feelings but etta had overreacted on her feelings. sure james could have given her a chance but at the time he had been with jossy. jossy finnigan, a seventh year girl only known for her kindness. if james had left her for etta, that would some kind of story. it was too much of a risk. he didn't know what etta was like and then to risk the potential of gossip going around, james didn't want to do it.

he hadn't gotten the chance to speak to etta since that day but why would she want to talk to him? he had hurt her. he had no idea what was going on in her life but james didn't bother. whatever was going on, it had to be better than whatever he was going through. he was finally getting a taste of his own medicine though. all those times that he had poisoned those girls, he was getting his own taste. the player had been played. he couldn't blame jossy though, he knew that she would never do such a thing towards him but she hadn't developed feelings for him as he had for her. james had been ready that night to make them official. jossy had different ideas though and this is where james had ended up. heartbroken.

james didn't know why etta would want to talk to him. he had this feeling inside of his stomach that she would now want to brag about some guy she had met. he was used to this already. most of the time, james would be proud and not be hurt at all. he had been wounded in the heart though. for him to see couples together, it hurt even more. he should be happy that they had someone but there had to be guys worse than him who had girls by their side. why did he have to be alone now? james wasn't desperate no more. he actually wanted a girl too. this was too much to ask for. he had been with so many girls in the past that hadn't been worth much (they would be with any guy) but once he got a quality girl like jossy, he couldn't handle her. he couldn't hold onto her. his moves didn't work on her as they did with other girls. he stopped hearing her voice. he turned around but didn't bother to look at etta in the face. he knew that she had something to tell him. it wouldn't be good but he'd have to take it. etta had something to tell him. james wasn't going to run away like a baby. no matter how much he didn't want to hear it, he would take it. he shrugged again. what did james really have to say. he wasn't looking the best. it was clear to see that he wasn't in the best shape. it wasn't like she was going to be the better person and help him. she was a slytherin. they were known for causing trouble. james being a gryffindor, the rivalry between the two was even worse. james didn't know what etta was trying to get out of him. he was already in the worse mood, what more did hse want? the only one he had been able to talk to about what had happened between jossy and him was his mother. he had needed someone to talk to and she seemed like the perfect woman to speak to. the woman who had landed harry potter should know something about love. he ruffled his brown mop of hair and let out a sigh. "what do you want etta?" he asked. he didn't want to stay. all he wanted was to go back to his dorm. james was so used to running away from everything, it was only a natural instinct for him to want to go back into his dorm. "do you want me to listen to a new guy you have met? do you want to tell me that you're off better without me? how you're life is more amazing than mine?" he leaned against the wall. "because if it is, i'll sit. you can gush all you want to me." he brushed his hands toward a windowsill that looked like it could be sat on.

tag: etta!
word count: 953
lyric credit: tony braxton
notes: omggg haha i actually had fun typing this <3

[arietta e. urquhart]

ANY PERSON WOULD BE SANE ENOUGH TO KNOW------------------------
what you did was wrong

there were not real words that could describe how much arietta actually hated james, of course it was slightly less than how much she hated kaden. even though she knew that she had completely exaggerated her feelings towards him she still considered him breaking her herat because that was what she thought she was going through. she had however realized that she had never actually had her heart broken until alec left her stranded in the woods with nothing, not even the ope of not being married to kaden. that theory had been almost tossed out the window and now that it wasn't arietta treasured the small moments she hd with alec before she was destined to become mrs. kaden dobrev. the thought, like always, made the newly legal witch shudder. she didn't want kaden, she never had and she was absolutely positive that she never would.the very thought of consummating their relationship frightened her let alone disgusted her. if she was lucky enough to get a boy out the first time then she would never had to be a naked kaden again. then at least she would be some what pleased with how her life had turned out though she highly doubted that anything would make her life better. soon enough she would be married and stuck in a house for the rest of her life and alec would be out having affairs with any other woman he could find... but arietta couldn't do that for the time fact that she was woman. her life, as great as she wanted to believe it was now that she was with alec, was not that great at all. she was sleeping with her fiancées best friend. or were they ex best friends? arietta could never actually tell what they were, it always confused her extremely. sometimes she honestly wondered if someone higher than her was controlling everything. -cough- making her life the worst that ever happened! what had she done to this said person or god that supposedly controlling her every move and mind? arietta softly shook those away, she didn't believe in a god if not where was this god to make her life less miserable? he wasn't there which only caused her to never believe in him. he hadn't placed her in a good household with people like her who were nice and then it all went downhill from there.

she wanted nothing more than to bitch james out. throw in his face how she had found someone so much better than he could ever be, even if when saying his name she would have to say kaden she would. she would throw in his face that she had a life ahead of her now, that she had a future husband, that someone loved her uncondionally even after the way that james had destroyed. that everything was okay with her life, that she was okay, that she wasn't the little sixteen year old that had crumbled down at his feet, even if that had been less than a year ago. what did she want? revenge in the sweetest way. she was about to speak this when she continued to speak. every word he said made her feel disgusted with herself so ever even thinking of doing such a thing to a person even if that person was james potter. how many girls had treated him the same way? how many had rubbed in his face that they were better off without him and such? could she really do that to him too? be as low as all those other girls? her slytherin side screamed yes and scolded her for even thinking of doing anything else. unfortunately arietta's slytherin side wasn't on that came out often, unless with molly she still had to prove she was best to have the throne, at least not since alec loved her no matter what. she made an angry face. "dammit,"

[/color] she said softly. "dammit, dammit dammit,"[/color] this time she said them slightly louder and with more force. that unknown power from above was making her be nice and she wasn't really enjoying it. she sighed softly. she already knew what she was going to do. "no... well at least not anymore,"[/color] she said honestly, she sighed again like this was physically hurting her to say this. "look just because you've hurt a lot of girls in the past doesn't mean that you won't get your happy ending... as much to my dismay... none the less, you'll get it,"[/color] arietta didn't even bother to look at him as she spoke, she just looked down and away from him since after all she wasn't even sure of what she had said herself and she sure as hell wished she could have had some snarly remark instead of comforting him. man did she really not like him at all.
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tag: james potter
word count: 975 words
outfit:here
lyrics: lyrics to me because i'm awesome like that XD
on itunes: marry me by train - lawls
credit: everything to me,
notes: don't ask i don't know why she said it either!

[james s. potter]

if james wasn't in the shape that he was, he would have tried to defend himself. he would have stood up for himself and spoken lies. something to give him an ego boost. even if the girl never believed him, he never liked to accept the truth anyway. it was easier for him to believe lies than to accept the truth. etta had found him in a different time of his life. a time when james was growing up and maturing. he had started to realize that he couldn't keep lying to himself. it wasn't healthy for him and if he kept on telling himself that he was the best, he was soon to hit rock bottom if he kept on doing that. he would build himself higher and higher only to realize that everything would come crashing down. luckily james hadn't let that tower rise and he let it crash down. as much as it hurt, he knew that he deserved this. etta wasn't even the first girl to try to stand up to him. there had been numerous of them and even more who had been too humiliated to even try to confront him. he could feel how sick he was in his stomach but he held his head up. his blue eyes fighting any emotion that was trying to show through. he was waiting for etta to speak. he wouldn't doubt that she would be ready to swing any snide remarks at him. he couldn't tell that etta had been taken off but what he said. most girls took those words to be some kind of take-off to their rant about him. he was then surprised that she didn't anymore. of course she had wanted to before but what had stopped her from going on? etta was being a bigger person but not saying anything and it had shocked james that she would do this. maybe during the time that they hadn't seen each other both had done some growing up. both had realized that if they kept on fighting with each other that no one would win. it would be this constant war that would get worse and worse. any girl that had walked up to james during this time that he had become vulnerable had been able to hit him with any remarks that they had wanted to. he had put his white flag up. he wasn't going to try and fight anymore. in the end, he always knew that he was wrong. his eyes went to the ground before looking up again. "what stopped you?" james asked. "you could have easily went on about whatever is going on in your life. most girls do anyway. i kinda deserve anyway." james put on a small smile knowing that he did but he wasn't getting it.

he raised one of his eyebrows at etta. "i'm sure that left a bitter taste in your mouth having to say that." james chuckled. "but spare me those words. i don't deserve that." he took a few paces towards the window ledge. sitting down he rubbed a hand across one of his eyes. "i'm sure your life is doing so much better than mine right now but i'm sorry." there was always a lump in his throat whenever he was forced to say the s word but this time, it flowed right from his mouth. "that doesn't make up what i took from you but it's the least that i could say." james sighed. he didn't know why he was so stupid these last few years for doing this to so many girls. this really wasn't the way that it should have ended in his seventh year. he should have been having the time of his life instead of confronting the skeletons that he had in his closet. "i'm sure you're a great girl anyway. i don't understand why you would have wanted to do something like that with a guy like me." he was quite charming with his words but he didn't understand why girls would want someone like him. he wasn't good news for them. "i know you'd wanted to brag about yourself. you shouldn't stop yourself because you're better than that. i had done wrong to you. you deserve whatever is going great for you in your life." james didn't know what this conversation with etta was supposed to bring. he knew that she didn't like him. he didn't think that the two would come out as friends but he wouldn't have to feel a sickness in his stomach every time he saw her. he wouldn't have to watch his back that her anger would build up so much she would hex him without any reasoning.

tag: etta!
word count: 912
lyric credit: tony braxton
notes: ahahaha james/etta

[arietta e. urquhart]

ANY PERSON WOULD BE SANE ENOUGH TO KNOW------------------------
what you did was wrong

there was nothing that could take away the smile off of arietta's face. she was happy. happier than she had ever been in her entire life. was that wrong? that she was happy? that she liked being where she was in her life even if it was still completely fucked up. she was to marry someone she didn't love because her parents saw that fit but she didn't see that fit. she was in love with alecksander and only really wanted alecksander. was that too much to ask for? was it really just too much to ask that the man that she was completely in love with to become her husband, to become the man she's to spend the rest of her life with? was that really just too much to ask for? did she pray to loudly to the gods from above to grant her that such wish that they thought she was annoying that decided to punish her in ways that only they would see fit? life really did suck then. it sucked more than anything she had ever thought about before. why was it this painful? wasn't it supposed to be sweet and dolly and dainty? yeah right that was only in the imaginations of people. her life was as messed up as any of the kids who were arranged to be married, every single one of them, cept for like scorpius and that bitch evalee but they were actually in love and getting married, was sad, depressed etc. arietta was no exception. she was engaged, in love, hopelessly and eternally in love just not with her parents' fiancee but with his best friend. how had it come to that. how in the world had it gone so sour in the course of a simple a year. if the schools had never burned down she never would have met alec, she would still be engaged to dobrev but at least she wouldn't love alec as much as she did and would actually give dobrev some time of day. but that wasn't the case, it wasn't the case at all. why was life so cruel? did it mind pleasure in making her suffer, hurt? ect? she inwardly groaned. arietta thought about james's words. what had stopped her? why hadn't she been a good slytherin princess and hexed his ass for what he did to her? because alec brought out her real side, her nice side.

she shrugged however making it seem as though she didn't know why. "I - I don't know,"

[/color] she said some what truthfully. "you do but that doesn't mean to need to hear it,"[/color] she smiled a little as she said that, why was she trying to make him feel better? for the love of god he was james freaking potter. "true you don't deserve those words at least not from me, however, i am above you so i'll say them nonetheless,"[/color] her voice was low almost too low for anyone to really hear what she was saying. then he said two words that shocked arietta's world. i'm sorry. he was sorry? he was actually apologizing for what he had done to her? taken something that clearly always meant a lot to a lot of girls? "wow... i can't believe you just apologized,"[/color] she admitted, it blurred out of her mouth before she could stop it. she turned her head towards him as he continued to talk. she wasn't a great girl though, she was so wrong. "i was tired of being the only one with it, and i wanted it gone... it wasn't until it was gone however that i realized how much it actually meant,"[/color] she said explaining why she really went to him for sex. she smiled softly and leaned against the hard marble. "but see even for someone like me, things aren't going as fabulous as i wish they were,"[/color] she didn't why she was about to admit this to james but she needed to admit to someone other than mira and herself. "i'm hopelessly in love with my fiancées best friend and i want to marry him not my fiancée,"[/color] she pulled out both rings, the one on her finger to show him and the one around her neck, alec's ring. "i've got nothing to brag about james,"[/color] if she wasn't mistaken that was the first time she had ever said his first name, either with snark or during that night but it was the first and she doubted it'd be the last. could they actually have a friendship? would they? was it even remotely possible to be friends with james if you were of the opposite sex? arietta highly doubted this but it was worth a shot.
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tag: james potter
word count: 980 words
outfit:here
lyrics: lyrics to me because i'm awesome like that XD
on itunes: where ever i go by miley cyrus and emily osment
credit: everything to me,
notes: could they? would they? were they?