BETTER THAN REVENGE

[arietta e. urquhart]

I LOVE YOU. I HATE YOU-------------------------------
which one is real

there was a four letter word that described how she felt about kaden. it definitely wasn't the feeling that she using to stare into his eyes. she smiled a little at him, a hand on his cheek and a loving gaze on her face. she moved her thumb around, really wanted to use it in way to torture him but she didn't have a choice now did she? it was either be in love with him or be disowned, be poor, and possibly lose anything that she could have for her future. being disowned wouldn't make her any more attractive to alec's parents, no she needed to seem like she was catch to have and that they should fight for their son to have her but she knew that was going to be hard. they had pictured emeline bletchley as the perfect whore, which was really all she was, to marry their son but they didn't know of the ring that was buried under her shirt that was supposed to be around her finger but couldn't. then there was the piece of shit that was on her actual finger, it had been given to her by the guy that she was pretending to be so in love with, the one guy that she wanted to hit more than anything in her entire life. arietta did what she always did she started to think of alec in their intimate moments, that familiar blush came onto her cheeks, assuring any rumors that this relationship was fake. if she blushed at just being at his presence, like she did almost all the time when alec would look at her face, then there was no way why anyone would question their relationship.it wouldn't happen and if anyone ever catch on well arietta could just take care of them later on when no one was looking, she was that good at things.

arietta placed her head on neck. "do anything more than what we planned and i'll kill you and don't think i won't dobrev, you are very well aware i am capable of murder especially if it's yours,"

[/color] she whispered so low that she barely heard herself. she moved her head back to look him in the eyes and kissed him softly. to her it was like kissing a rock that was disgusting and had been dipped in dirt so many times. she hated him more than anything in the entire world for the main reason that he was the really the only reason that was keeping her away from her one true love, from alec. there was really no way that she could ever actually have any feelings for kaden either. he was everything that she hated and if she needed a bigger reason from the obvious one that he was keeping her away from alec well let's just say that that would never actually happen because there was nothing bigger than that. the newly legal witch started to twirl her hair slightly. "so what have you planned for us today in the castle kaden?"[/color] she asked her voice soft and meaningful. she had mastered this trick, all she would do was think about alec, she was talking to alec, all alec just insert the name change to kaden and she was set. her gaze left kaden's for a millie second to look at alec before looking at kaden. "have i told you how lucky i feel to be with you?"[/color] she said placing an arm on his chest and another on his shoulder. her legs were almost crossed over his. they looked really close but no one knew that they were actually really far away from each other. that they hated each other more than anything in the entire world. arietta had never actually hated anyone more than kaden and she had hated adalynn dimitrov badly for quite some time but it didn't beat the hate she had for kaden, nothing could.
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tag: kaden dobrev
word count: 810 words
outfit:here
lyrics: lyrics to me because i'm awesome like that XD
on itunes: better than revenge by taylor swift
credit: everything to me,
notes: hehe such great dislike! ah shorter than what i had expected!

[kaden a. dobrev]

I hate everything about you Why do i love you

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it really was hard to believe kaden could ever hate someone more than his mother.after all she was the anti-christ. but wile kaden despised his mother with every bone in his body there was a special kind of hatred he had for the girl currently wrapped around him. the girl he had his arms around, kissing and cuddling with. the one that had his ring on her finger. though of course he had never planned on giving that ring to any girl. it was his mothers family heirloom and he would never give it to a girl he cared for. but of course he didn't care for the girl wearing it. he hated arietta. with a passion. and not only did he hate her, she disgusted him. he'd never like her much, partially on principle as she was enemies with his best friend, but also because there was just something about her that rubbed him the wrong way.

like right now. she was just giving him the willies. he couldn't describe it any other way. he just couldn't stand having her touch him some days. but he had to deal with it. usually he dealt with it by getting drunk and showering in boiling water. in fact he wished he had a bottle of firewhiskey to down right now. watching etta stare lovingly into his eyes it actually made kaden want to hurl. but he forced himself to stare back with what passed for his 'loving' look. or at least what people who knew the asshole slytherin side of him would think of as loving. no one but his sister, ada and raina knew what the real one looked like. and no one else ever would probably. they were the only women kaden had ever really cared for. though he doubted raina would believe it, they were the only ones he still cared for.

"don't worry urquhart i can barely stomach what we agreed upon. let alone any more."

[/i] he replied equally as quietly and venomously as she had. brushing back a piece of her hair for appearances kaden couldn't help but notice the quick flick of her eyes from his to somewhere over his shoulder where he knew alec would be. it made his blood rise. not because he was jealous. but because of how things were between them right now. alec had been, was still, one of kaden's best friends. things were definitely more than strained right now between them and it pissed kaden off that he couldn't do anything about it. first there was alec dating ada, then them breaking up and now kaden being engaged to etta. who he knew alec loved. it made kaden want to punch something, the pure frustration of it. as much as kaden cared about alec he hadn't thought he deserved ada. but then again, so far as kaden was concerned no guy deserved ada. so it really wasn't a fair thing.

"well i thought maybe we could go and have a pick nick out by the lake,"[/i] he replied equally as sweet and caring while in his mind he finished the thought 'and throw you in for the squid'. ya it was morbid but at the moment it completely fit his mood. his plan was to make it look like they were going out for the pick nick and then they could both just go their separate ways. the quicker he could get away from her the quicker he could go find a bottle of firewhiskey and maybe ada or one of the guys.

lucky hey? ya because those words were exactly what she meant. ahh but of course in her mind she wasn't talking to him. he knew her trick for getting through this. she thought of alec in these moments. which he actually had to admit was smart. he had to think of ada the times when they were forced to kiss. but even then he felt guilty. his feelings for ada were something all together more complicated than what was happening with him and etta. first there were the left over guilt over how things had gone down with raina and ada. how he had left things with raina made him feel horrible most days. he'd see her in the halls and know that the hate in her eyes was all his fault. there was no one else to blame for that. he wished he could make it right but he wasn't sure how. and all the repercussions from that. merlin kadens life was complicated.[/blockquote]

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[arietta e. urquhart]

I LOVE YOU. I HATE YOU-------------------------------
which one is real

oh lord how she hated him to much. she had never in her life thought that someone would make her want to throw up as much as he did. just his facial expression made her want to regurgitate her lunch. this was one of the reasons that arietta didn't eat when she was around kaden or it would surely end up on his lap.... not that she would really matter to her. but then her parents crawled into mind. it was all because of her father. her father saw it fit that since she hadn't had a decent relationship with anyone pure that she be bundled up with the next available pureblood, in came kaden dobrev. arietta had already broken down to her mother. but her mother said that they were nothing to do about it, that it was done, she would be arietta emilia dobrev by the end of her sixth year. she would finish hogwarts married to that piece of crap. no. she wouldn't stand for it. if worst came to worst arietta would just disappear to the americas like the plan that she had had from the beginning. she would leave kaden, she would leave alec... alec. if it wasn't for alec arietta would have left the second she was told to marry kaden. she wouldn't have cared if her father would have disowned her and all she had to herself was arietta emilia. she didn't care if she wasn't urquhart. she wouldn't have cared. but alec stopped all of that. when she found out she was engaged, alec had left her and she had already made plans to run during the winder holidays but her mother made sure she was close by. she now would have three days after kaden's graduation before she was totally fucked over.

she rolled her eyes at kaden's words. they hated each other. they both knew that and the thought of being together for the rest of their lives was impossibly horrible. "good,"

[/color] she liked hearing the venom in his voice, it meant that he wasn't growing any feelings towards her which was the last thing she needed. arietta's trick was good, it worked, it was the only way that this acting thing they had to do would work, she had no idea what his was since he didn't have anyone the way she had alec.. or at least as far as she knew. she didn't care for his personal life. at the moment the only thing that kept the loving looking on her face was getting to spend the night with alec in an empty dungeon. she was excited. her face turned into one that held disbelieve and gratitude at the same time. "aw kaden! a picnic? that's so sweet and thoughtful,"[/color] she hated what came next. she gave him a small peck, almost nothing. "i'm excited now!"[/color] she said her voice tripping with excitement. it almost lunch time anyway, most kids in the great hall at that moment where either chatting away or studying, arietta was talking the the devil himself not that she would ever voice this, only to alec really. she flipped some on her hair behind her shoulder and smiled. "oh i can't wait till we get married, it's going to be so lovely,"[/color] a dreamy stare rolled upon her face as the thought of being married to alec crawled into her mind, it was just wonderful honestly. after three seconds she mentally shook her thought from her mind and smiled at kaden. merlin she hated him. too much for words to be able to describe her hate.
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tag: kaden dobrev
word count: 759 words
outfit: clickty click!
lyrics: lyrics to me because i'm awesome like that XD
on itunes: what about me by emily osment
credit: everything to me,
notes: oh they make me want to hate someone. XD

[kaden a. dobrev]

I hate everything about you Why do i 'love' you

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only a few months left. that's all the time kaden had. a few months and he would never escape the death sentence that had been handed down to him. he finally understood all those references in movies about a guy getting married being like the death of him. though he doubted that if he'd chosen his prospective bride himself he would feel quite so bad. he'd probably be looking forward to the day in fact. not dreading it with every waking moment. kaden remembered like it was yesterday. he walked into his parents house as happy and care free as could be. well maybe care free wasn't the word. he was dealing with his new found feelings for his best friend, along with the fall out from everything that had happened with raina. he was a bit of a mess actually. stumbling in half drunk still after a night at the bar. needless to say his father, sitting waiting for him, wasn't entirely impressed. in fact kaden remembers him saying something along the lines of 'this is exactly why this measure is needed.' of course kaden made some smart remark, though he can't entirely recall it right now. then his father proceeded to tell him that he would be entering into a contract of marriage. not only would he be forced to marry a girl of his parents' choosing he would have to pretend to have come up with the idea all on his own and be in love with her to boot. because of course his father wanted to make it seem that he was a good enough pureblood to have chosen the 'right girl' for his only son.

well kaden was having none of that. and he said as much to his father, with a few more colorful words added in. kaden was just about to walk out at that point, but then his father mentioned something about kaden's sister. that stopped him dead in his tracks. kaden was extremely protective of his sister, to the point of being almost overbearing at times. anything that could put her in danger made kaden sit up and pay attention. so when his father informed him that if he refused this arrangement that his sister would be put into the same one, but of course with another person. kaden couldn't allow that. what was his happiness compared to his baby sisters? so kaden agreed. but when he found out what girl they had chosen for him kaden's resolve was tested. arietta urquhart. she was an enemy of kaden's best friend, and just a girl kaden couldn't stand at the best of times. the prospect of spending the rest of his life with her was nauseating.

which was how he felt right now. he always had to fight that feeling, and the urge to shudder, when ever he was near arietta like this. he found it funny though that she seemed pleased by his response, more so than she should have been. it was like she was happy to hear the hate in his voice. he couldn't quite understand it. they'd established long ago that neither of them wanted this, but had no choice. kaden didn't know what it was arietta's parents had on her to force her to go along with it. but it must have been something big. he knew she had no more esteem for him than he did for her so it had to be something to get her over it. and not only that she was in love with one of his best friends. with a ring to match from what he'd seen once. him and alec had had it out a while back too, kaden had reassured his friend there was no way in hell he would ever touch arietta in any way other than what was absolutely essential to make the story stick. like the small peck she gave him now as part of her response to his picnic idea. "well i'm a thoughtful kind of guy" he replied. giving her a smile that in his head was meant for ada or raina. standing he grabbed the basket he had with him and offered her his hand to help her up. "oh between our mothers i'm sure it will be extremely lovely. nauseatingly so." he replied with a genuine laugh. it was funny to him that the fact he thought it would be nauseating would be taken by most as a bit of a joke on all the girly things happening in a wedding. but in reality, and only him and etta would know this, he considered it nauseating just because it was even happening. life was funny that way.

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notes:nauseating is funny![/size]

[arietta e. urquhart]

I LOVE YOU. I HATE YOU-------------------------------
which one is real

they were the perfect couple, that couple that everyone wanted to be. every girl wished they could have someone as sensative as kaden seemed to put on when arietta and the public eye was around. and ever guy wanted someone that was like arietta, clingy but not too much, since after all you often saw kaden and arietta at different ends of the party their simple excuse that they would always go home with each other at the end and they found no need to stop being with their friends just because they were in love. arietta however sometimes barely found time for her friends. it was bad. she was either faking to be in love with kaden or making love to alec. did you see her dilemma? she barely had time to breathe let alone make more friends than she already had. the one person that she did however make sure she had time for was molly. molly may have been the entire reason that arietta was in the whole situation that she was in but molly was still arietta's closest friend. or one of them, she had her best friend mira of course and she had other friends but just something about the power that molly had and how she had gotten it was aweing. arietta had done something similar in what molly had done the only difference being that molly's last name was considered to be a traitor name and she had flipped it all around. molly was the most respected slytherin seventh year female that there ever was. arietta wanted people to worship the ground she walked on like they did for molly but that sort of power came with years of effort. arietta had climbed her way up just the way molly had and molly liked arietta quite a bit, it was only obvious that arietta get the slytherin power next year... if it wasn't for evalee nott and her efforts to put a damper on arietta's plans.

being in kaden arms would have been wonderful. it could have been. under any other circumstance. he was good looking, was nice when he wanted to, and she liked the way he talked. but she was head over heels for the pureblood obsessed manipulator that had claimed her heart in one second. was it honestly fair at all? their parents wanted them to be together and if arietta had never slept with james she might have actually enjoyed the idea... but those weren't the circumstances, she hated kaden because every minute that she spent with him was another minute that she wasn't with alec, it was another minute that those feelings of missing would kick it. it had been too long since the last time that she had spoken with alec, maybe three days or four since a real conversation. alec had his own problems to get him through the days. he had his own little engagement that he needed to get himself out not to mention that he needed to worm arietta out of her engagement as well but arietta knew the chances of that happening would be zero to none. once pureblooded parents set their mind on something it was nearly impossible for them to shake it off which was what arietta hated the most about them but what could she honestly do about it? nothing. zipo. nada. it annoyed her half to death. she wanted her own life back not this stupidy of a life that she was leading on to be as wonderful as anything. she giggled. "that you are, and handsome too,"

[/color] sometimes arietta wondered if the act looked too fake but she would often send joey on missions to find out if anything too harsh was being said, nothing so far. she smiled. "i promise i won't allow our mothers too make it too nauseatingly,"[/color] she said giggling a little at the end. she took his hand in stand up and straightened her skirt a little, then smirked at kaden. something that would be taken as her teasing him.
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word count: 810 words
outfit:here
lyrics: lyrics to me because i'm awesome like that XD
on itunes: air conditioning
credit: everything to me,
notes: oh they make me smile, in the bad way XD

[kaden a. dobrev]

I hate everything about you Why do i love you

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it was a little more than awkward the dozen or so times a week someone asked kaden where his fiancee was. it was awkward because kaden hardly ever knew where she was. but he could have made a damn good guess if he'd had to. with alec. hell most days he'd put good money down on the fact he was right with that guess. he was pretty sure that whenever she wasn't forced to be with him she was locked up somewhere with alec. part of kaden wanted to laugh at the fact that his life was such a drama. his best mate was sleeping with his fiance. and he, himself, was in love with his best friend who was betrothed to another guy. you couldn't write that shit. he should put it all down and sell it to some muggle movie maker and make millions. not that he needed it. as the eldest dobrev kaden stood to inherit quite a bit of money. so long as his parents didn't decide to write him out of the will. which he wouldn't put past them. not for a second.

his father hoped that some day kaden would see the light and become the perfect little pureblood he always pretended to be. but it was all just an act. kaden didn't really care if he inherited all his families money, it would just make everything a bit easier. but so long as he was happy, healthy and preferably with someone who loved him as he really was then he'd be just fine. and cripes did that sappiness make him almost want to vomit. the only good thing about this potential marriage in kadens mind was that there'd be a break. arietta was a year younger than him so that mean that after the wedding he would actually have a whole year free of her. that was before he would be stuck with her for the rest of his life. so not much of a break. actually it was quite a depressing thought. a whole life spent pretending to be happy and really wanting to kill each other.

really though, if everything was different it wouldn't be so bad. arietta was pretty. well more than pretty, she was hot let's face it. but she wasn't quite kaden's type. kaden liked girls that were a bit more of your 'girl next door' look. cute and pretty more than hot. arietta's look was almost too harsh for kadne's tastes. but she it shouldn't have been to much of a challenge to spend his time with her. but she wasn't the one he wanted. he wanted adalynn. that was plain and simple. but he knew he couldn't have her. and there was still the question of raina. the girl kaden had fist given his heart too. only to have it broken and break her's all at the same time. he had never told her he loved her, hell he'd never even admitted that to himself, but he'd very truly cared for her. but he'd screwed it all up by his drunken hook up with ada. not only had he slept with another girl, he'd also fallen for said girl. kaden and raina had always been off and on, but they'd still been together really. the night he'd slept with ada had triggered all of the problems in kaden's life right now you could say. not only was it the end of his relationship with raina, it had caused him to develop feelings for his best friend who was already betrothed, and it could have been part of the reason he'd been forced into this arranged engagement. his father had seen that kaden obviously couldn't get the proper girl on his own so he'd taken things into his own hands. kaden was sure he'd always been planning on doing it anyways, but his and raina's relationship blowing up was probably the thing that started the whole process.

shrugging at etta's fake compliment kaden chuckled, "well let's hope so, i've got to stand up to your beauty."

[/i] he replied, doing his best to keep the bile rising in his throat from coming up. that wasn't too difficult on it's own but he also had to keep the look on his face pleasant and loving. which was harder than anything kaden had ever done before. but he was getting pretty good at it. ada had even told him she had occasionally caught her self almost believing his act. which, as far as kaden was concerned, was perfect. he wanted to make damn sure his father had nothing to say that kaden wasn;t owning up to his part of the deal. he wanted to make sure there was no way his baby sister would get thrust into this situation. better that kaden had to struggle through it. "thank you! as long as i don't get put into something purple or flowery i will be alright." he thanked her as he waited for her to adjust her clothes. grabbing her hand and tucking it into his basket free arm kaden lead the way out of the great hall, nodding to a few people along the way.[/blockquote]

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wearing:blue jeans and shirt in picture.
notes:Here ya go!! sorry it took so long, got pretty sick and was out of commission for a bit.[/size]

[arietta e. urquhart]

I LOVE YOU. I HATE YOU-------------------------------
which one is real

arietta always wondered if it was meant to be that her life turned out so badly. this year it had turned from bad to worse, it was all started by james and the night she didn't want to remember but couldn't forget. she'd spend time with alec before that and hadn't realized how much she fancied him, she did but only after all romantic thoughts of james were out of her mind, once he was gone alec was the only one on her mind. of course she couldn't show that. alec and arietta had always kept their relationship on the down low since they both just wanted to be fuck buddies. that was all they were supposed to be but then feelings and kaden came in all at once. he left her, she cried blah blah blah, it was old news to her already and news that she once again didn't want to remember at all. she also honestly didn't want to think about the guy she was with at the moment. technically after bing married to him they weren't supposed to consummate their relationship, not until she was a hogwarts graduate. their excuse? they didn't see a reason to wait one more year before they were husband and wife.then if she was forced to actually marry him, in other words alec failed miserable in getting her out of it, then she would consummate her relationship once and pray to the highest god that it would be a boy that way she would never had to see kaden naked again, the very thought made her want to shudder but she didn't - she couldn't, she was in public after all. she could do that, she could when they were alone - not that they ever made plans to be alone unless it was planning their next little show for the school or something like that - but now that he was going to take her to a picnic and all. how sweet. that was sarcastic.

arietta giggled at his compliment. she hadn't been able to master the blushing on command just yet so instead she lowered her head and look all modest. "oh stop it you're making me blush!"

[/color] she protested, giggling like a little girl in love all the while. she heard a few awws from the tables around them and knew they had caught quite the attention. most people assumed that they were sleeping together but since arietta didn't even want to think about that, as fake as anything anyway, she proclaimed that he was simple waiting until they were married like the gentleman she was and she claimed how lucky she was to have him when in reality all she wanted to do was throw up. she laughed at his comment. "if anything, my mother can dress herself in flowers and purple,"[/color] she said smiled. she leaned into his arm as the walked away to make it looked like she was actually completely in love with him. she forced herself to not turn back to look even for half a second, she couldn't. it was hard to not turn back and know that alec was staring at them hating every moment of this pretend love they were sharing. "has your mother contacted you about a date? i know my mother wanted one in june but i never found out,"[/color] she spoke of their wedding as if she were speaking of the weather, like it was just something that was meant to happen and couldn't be avoidable. of course people took this the way they were supposed to but think about it, she talked about it as if she didn't care because she really didn't. when they reached the grassy part, where there was no longer any pavement, arietta lifted a foot took of one heel, and then the other and continued to walk barefoot. those were some expensive muggle shoes and she wasn't about to ruin then but digging them into the floor. she was now rather shorter than kaden and felt less superior, she hated it. she looked around, there were some students scattered but they were out of ear shot of them, as long as they looked like they were in love they didn't have to speak like they were. "what you pack dobrev? i'm starving,"[/color] she said the venom back in her voice, she hated spending time with him.
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tag: kaden dobrev
word count: 891 words
outfit:here
lyrics: lyrics to me because i'm awesome like that XD
on itunes: like a virgin by glee
credit: everything to me,
notes: hehe i just adore them so much, raina next!