nothing but missing you

[arryn n. lestrange]

this is me swallowing my pride
standing in front of you saying i'm sorry for that night

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“Simonette, you’ll be partnered with Lestrange.”
Well. That was awkward.
She hadn’t talked to Leo in weeks. Not since she found out that he was going here. She wanted to; she had only the best intentions when it came to talking to him that morning. But he had been mad, and she got that. That’s why she backed off, she wanted him to see that she really meant what she said to him by Hagrids Hut that morning. But now he was purposely blocking her out. He had avoided her gaze whenever she tried to catch his eye, turned corners whenever she came towards him. Lately, Arryn had taken the stance of ‘well, whatever then. if he wants to be a right ass about the whole thing, then it’s not my problem.’ She had done what she thought was right at the time. Had she come back in a relationship, she probably would have ended up hurting him. After all, there were so many people here that she definitely had flings going on with when she went to France. She wasn’t cheating on them when she hooked up with Leo, but had she come back and continued many of them… The thought made her sick. She didn’t want to risk that. Of course, when she saw the way Leo looked at her when they ran into each other, when she heard how stupid it sounded when he repeated it back to her, she realised she was wrong. And realised that she had to let him cool down. But come on, this was ridiculous! She wanted more than anything to just say sorry. But, as he was proving time and time again, this was proving to be the challenge.

The only time Arryn saw Leopald now was in potions. See, when the Beauxbaton and Durmstrang students came into Hogwarts, she didn't really see any point to learn their names or whatever. They seemed to keep to each other in classes anyway. So, it was an easy mistake not realising that he was in her potions class. And if he had noticed, then he hadn't said hi or anything anyway, so it wasn't just her bad. It was only a few weeks ago that she noticed, actually. The day after their encounter on the fields. She was sitting next to Emery, daydreaming as Emery gushed on about something when she noticed him walk in. His incredibly muscular form, his gorgeous blonde hair, the funny little way he walked. It was really him, and he was in her class. However, since they made no efforts to be made acquaintances, so Arryn left it. Today had been no different. She walked into potions a little early, forgetting that new 'partners' were going to be assigned to 'keep things fresh' or something like that. Stupid professors, they just didn't understand. She listened, occassionally smirking at pairs called, waiting for her own name. She got on with everyone in the class. She wasn't worried. Not until she heard her name called with his. 'Simonette, you'll be partnered with Lestrange.' Crap. Looking over where Leopald was sitting, trying to determine how he was reacting to this, she picked up her bag and moved over to him, sitting down in her new seat with her allocated partner. For the rest of the period, she sat in silence, not trying to provoke anything. If he wasn’t ready to talk to her, that was his call. But, as the hour ticked on and Arryn’s patience wore thinner and thinner, she began to question his motives. Why couldn’t they just work it out? They were both adults now, Arryn was mature enough to admit this had been her bad. So why was he not willing to just move on? Soon class was dismissed and Arryn packed her bag quickly, her mood worsening with each item that was packed away. She watched him leave the room without as much as a word. She almost walked the other direction. She knew it would be the smarter thing to do, seeing as her temper was beginning to flair and this wouldn’t end well. But, she couldn’t quite managed it. She followed him to the common room, and walked in after him, making sure it was empty. Satisfied, she slammed her bag down and rounded on Leopald.

”Leopald! Please! Just stop and talk to me!” She screamed, a rare moment of anger taking control of her. She didn’t even mean to scream at him, she really didn’t, but the frustration of the situation, at her bad decision, at everything, just kind of overtook her. ”Look, the rest of this year is going to be crap unless we sort something out. Now I said I was sorry. I said that what I did was wrong. I've given you space to get over it, I've tried absolutely everything I can do to think of to show you that I'm serious about getting over this. Now what the hell do you want?” She finished, a determined look crossing her face. She wasn’t going to let this go. She was going to make him say it. Say that he hated what she did, that he hated her, whatever he needed to say in order to get this behind them. That summer had been good. They had been friends. If nothing else, she wanted that back. And if that was unachievable, she needed a good grade in potions. So she was going to make him explode. Or vent. Or have a heart-to-heart. Whatever it was that he needed to do to make this right. Because if there was one thing that bubbly and nice Arryn Lestrange couldn’t stand, it was being ignored for no reason. And today, Leopald Simonette was going to learn that lesson.

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TAGGED ! [/color]leo/vicky.
LYRICS ! back to december - taylor swift
WORDS ! 965
OUTFIT ! HURR
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[leopald g. simonette]

leo had mostly enjoyed being a student at hogwarts considering the circumstances. being uprooted and moved school in your last year of education wasn’t the easiest thing and there were definitely some changes that he’d had to make, and also being taught magic in what wasn’t your first language was fairly difficult. leo had some problems every so often, but his parents had made a big effort to teach him english when he had been a kid and so most of the time he grasped the understanding. the only thing that had caused an issue, if it even was an issue, was seeing arryn again. there was very severe awkwardness between them unfortunately, and leo was pretty sure he’d only made it worse. the two of them had unfortunately bumped into one another by hagrids hut a while back, and despite her trying to explain, leo had got a bit fired up and angry, and had pretty much ignored her reasoning. he knew he probably should have tried to be more understand over the situation, but really, he was hurting, still. it had been a horrible horrible situation, and he wanted no more to do with. now, he’d cooled down a lot since their previous meeting, since they’d mostly been ignoring one another, furtive glances now and then, but definitely no personal contact. he’d had a bit of time to think about the situation, but he wasn’t entirely sure what he wanted to think. sure, he was still angry at her, but it was almost two years ago? surely he could let go and the two of them could be friends, that was what he would have liked. they had been extremely close for that summer, and was there any real point in letting what could be a good friendship go to waste?

leo was heading down for the one class that the pair shared, it was odd how it all worked but slytherin and hufflepuff had been put together for NEWT potions since there were now too many of them to just have one class. leo still didn’t quite understand the housing system and the rivalry that there seemed to be between them, it didn’t matter all to much to him, but he was sure if he admitted this to his parents they’d be shocked. they probably knew all the intricate details being so obsessed with purity and elitism as they were. he walked into the class, bag on his shoulder, running a hand through his hair, and went to sit with some of his friends, noting arryn was sitting by emery thruston. he listened up for his name as the professor began to call out pairings, and looked down, jolted a bit by what the professor said. ”simonette, you’ll be partnered with lestrange.”

[/i] great, now he’d have to make some sort of effort to be civil, as they’d have to work together and his grades would depend on it. perfect, just perfect. throughout the hour period, she seemed to ignore him, and as such, leo returned the favour. if she was going to be like that, he should as well. it seemed a little petty to him though, but he was in an irritable mood anyway after having been paired with her. it wasn’t as if she was a bad person to work with, it was just a little too awkward for his liking.

as the class ended, leo headed to the common room, where he could be calm, and alone and not have to deal with the irritation that he was feeling. the typically easy going down to earth guy was stressed out, the rest of this year was going to be ridiculous, and he was a bit fed up, and almost wanted to go home which he never wanted to do. he sat down on the sofa, through his bag down, and suddenly looked up as he heard arryn yelling at him. great. his eyes met hers, and he saw that she was fairly angry at him. welllll, he supposed that was possibly fair enough, he was still fairly angry at her, and the potions lesson had been pretty disastrously awkward. “i don’t know!” he yelled back after the blonde girl finished shouting at him. he wasn’t sure what he wanted, what he felt, seeing her again had just brought back so many bad memories that he was unsure of how to react. he wanted to be stoic, beyond all this crazy emotion, and just remain calm but he couldn’t. “i don’t know what to think. i don’t even know what to feel! i was angry, and i might still be angry, but i don’t want to deal with it!” leo was beginning to let his emotions take control of him. he didn’t want to yell at her again, he was sure that had been bad enough the first time. ”i don’t even hate you.” he said quietly, pausing. ”i mean, i really don’t you know. i just don’t understand what happened there, between us. you left, and i hurt. i want to get over it, i want to trust you now, and i want to be friends, but i’m just not sure i can.” leo sighed, releasing a lot of tension that he’d been feeling for a while.

word count: around 900 i think?
notes: LOVE THEM :3 <3

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[arryn n. lestrange]

this is me swallowing my pride
standing in front of you saying i'm sorry for that night

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“And you think ignoring it’s better?”

[/b] She yelled back to his ‘I don’t want to deal with it’comment. “You think ignoring me is going to make this all better? Easier to deal with, maybe? Newsflash, buddy. I kind of live here too. We’re in the same god-damned class! How long did you think you could just wipe me out for?”[/b] She shouted back. She was determined to keep him angry. She was going to make him explode. Because she would be damned if she was going to put up with this tension for the rest of… well, however long they were destined to be partners for. However, she’d be lying if she said she had expected anything different than what had come out of his mouth. She watched as the anger flared up in his eyes, his face distorting for that split second before he managed to calm himself down. Arryn watched the only boy she had ever truly loved struggle with this whole thing, something that had obviously been bothering him more than she realised. Quickly, her anger melted away, and was instantly replaced with guilt. Arryn wasn’t naturally an angry person, as mentioned above, and she rarely bothered to care about an issue enough for it to take hold of her and actually makes her angry. But with Leo, it was different. Because over the last few weeks, as she watched him ‘ignore her’ and make do with what he probably felt as an awkward situation, she discovered her long forgotten feelings. The butterflies she felt in France whenever she’d see him in the mornings. The same distaste for all the girls who were practically undressing him with their eyes. She hated seeing him talk to other girls, she hated knowing that she didn’t even have the right to feel so jealous. Arryn Lestrange never fell in love. It was like her golden rule. She slept with guys, she flirted to get what she wanted, she had casual hook-ups, she had casual fling . But now as she looked at his face, remembering those summer nights she spent with him looking into those gorgeous eyes, getting to cuddle into his chest when she got cold, resting her head on his shoulder, having him all to herself… The memories gave her goose-bumps. She loved him. She was in love with him. She had broken her golden rule for him. And that was the end of it. She didn’t want him to ignore her. She didn’t want him to think she couldn’t be trusted or have any second thoughts when it came to her. But the sad thing was she didn’t know what to do about it either. Because whenever she got a chance to ask him about it, he pinned the blame on her. Well, it was her fault. But, at the same time, it wasn’t like she wasn’t hurting either. When she came home, she cried almost every night just remembering those cruel things she said. For almost six months she moped around, not responding to the flirty owls or the wolf whistles she would normally get. She hated that he would never see how much she hurt too. It was like a vicious circle, there were no winners. Only two losers who didn’t know how to fix it.

Sighing, Arryn moved over to where Leo was standing. ”I’m sorry. But then, you knew that, right? I’ve only told you about a million times.”[/b] She said, sighing. ”I bet that you didn’t know that I miss you even more than I could have believed, and I was prepared to miss you a good deal. I also bet that you didn’t know that I’ve thought about you every day since I saw you here.” Sighing again, she looked up at him, strongly fighting the urge to touch his hair like she used too. “I know you think you can't trust me, but I mean it when I say that I'm sorry. I also mean it when I say that I will never, ever do anything to hurt you ever again. Really.”[/b] She said quietly. There was no need to scream not, she was close enough that she could smell the mixed scent of his cologne and his own distinct smell. She swallowed nervously, fighting off every impulse she had to touch him. ”I still love you.”[/b] She whispered, before she realised what she was saying. She felt her cheeks flush with colour as realisation hit. Well, she had only whispered it. There was still a chance that he hadn’t actually heard anything, and she might be free from the absolute embarrassment of having him heard her. After a few moments of determinedly staring at the ground trying to let the moment pass without anything else embarrassing happening, she decided to risk it and look up. She caught Leo’s eye and felt herself blush a little more, the butterflies in her stomach going crazy. She should have stepped back while she had the chance. Now instead she was standing there, blushing like a schoolgirl and making a general fool of herself. Nicely done Arryn. She didn’t drop her gaze or anything though, and continued to gaze into the pools of blue looking back at her. She felt her heart race as she held the contact, her body acting faster than her mind could keep up and tell her not too. She was leaning into him. Every inch of her was screaming ‘yes’ and ‘no’ at the same time. Before she knew it, her lips had met his. And once they did, she snapped herself back into reality. Two seconds ago, they’d been screaming at each other. Crap. ”Oh… I am… So sorry!” She exclaimed before heading over to her bag. Well, she screwed things up magnificently.

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TAGGED ! [/color]leo/vicky.
LYRICS ! back to december - taylor swift
WORDS ! 965
NOTES ! meeee too! gah crap post. and im sorry if this post was a bit 'fast' lol, i want to get them moving xD
OUTFIT ! HURR
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[leopald g. simonette]

all leo could feel was anger, he didn’t know what to think about arryn. it was stupid, it had been crazy and he regretted ever getting involved with her. sure he’d fallen in love and she’d been his first kiss and everything, but if he’d known how much it would hurt when she left him he never would have got involved in the first place. summer romances were stupid, and now being at the school and hearing the sort of girl she was like, he realised that he had been an idiot to think that she and him could ever have had a chance together. she was not the sort of girl leo would ever have usually liked. her surname made her the sort of girl that his parents wanted him to be with – they were all the same, pureblood elitists, obsessed with keeping his family bloodline pure, and leo just hated them. he hated everything at the moment, the usually upbeat happy hufflepuff was stressing out and getting angry just because of her. he couldn’t deal with it at all, it was just making him angry even thinking about it.

”well yes!” he yelled back, ”it’s been working up to now, and so why do we need to deal with it! we can work together in silence if we have to, and it won’t make any difference! after all that’s what happened today isn’t it.” the potions class had been running high with tensions, leo knew that, the two of them working together had been pretty awful. silence from both parties had just caused stress, and problems when they’d been making their potion. it felt almost like the professor had done it on purpose, put the two of them together to make some sort of point to them, like they should work out their issues. but of course that wasn’t it, since the professor obviously had no idea what was going on between them, it was just pure bad luck that two of them had to work together for the rest of the year. ”i don’t know.” he said quietly. ”i just want to forget all about you, it hurts arryn, i don’t want to deal with it, and i don’t want to see you.” that wasn’t the truth, of course he wanted to see her, he even wanted to try and be friends, but he wasn’t sure that would work out at all, since he knew that just seeing her would bring back bad memories and drive him mental. he had no idea why he was being so stupidly emotional, he was just stressing himself out. leo did not have any experience with girls really, it wasn’t that he was a shy guy, no the entire opposite really, it was just that he’d always just been friends with girls, he’d not really had relationships and since the only time that he had properly had one had been with arryn, he didn’t really want to deal with them again.

leo listened closely to her apology, starting to soften towards her. ”i didn’t know that was how you felt.” he said quietly, shocked at the realisation that she wasn’t just lying every time she told him she was sorry, or that she’d missed him. so it went both ways then, it wasn’t just him being an idiot, and obsessing over her. leo went bright red when she told him she loved him, and just about managed to stammer out, ”oh god, i love you too.” he smiled slightly at her shocked, embarrassed expression. his eyes met hers, and suddenly their lips were touching. at first leo pulled away slightly, what was she doing? what was he doing?! they’d been yelling at each other not five minutes ago, but once he began to think a bit more, he began to kiss her back, his arms going around her back and pulling her close to him. and then she’d ended it and moved away and yet again his heart sank, why was she doing this to him? building up his hopes and then destroying them in a second. “no. arryn wait!” leo said. “please don’t be sorry! i m-mean, i don’t mind.” before he knew it, leo had crossed over to where she was standing, and had wrapped his big arms around her in a bear hug. ”i’ve missed you.” he sighed.

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notes: aha don’t worry! <3 sorry it’s quite a bit shorter :/

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[arryn n. lestrange]

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Arryn would never really understand the concept of love. As pessimistic and, well, ironic it sounded considering she was declaring her love for Leo, it sounded, at least she was being honest. When she looked around at her friends and family, she was surrounded by ‘loving relationships’ that just didn’t seem like love to her. The pureblood guys and gals that were engaged due to some elaborate arranged marriage scheme, but were sneaking around with other people, sleeping with just about anything of the opposite sex, cheating on the person that they were meant to be spending the rest of their lives with. And yet, when they came to her with their problems, how they love their sexual partner of the week, how they don’t know how to tell their parents of their plans to elope with the ‘newest fad’ Arryn couldn’t help but think ‘how is this love’? She couldn’t say that what she felt with Leo was love, purely because she hadn’t known him for too long in all fairness. One summer together, two conversations since. She didn’t know what his favourite sandwich was, he didn’t know that her favourite colour was green. To her, if you ‘love’ someone, you’ve gotta know enough about them to love the good and the bad. And, in all honesty, she didn’t know much about him, and vice versa. But she wanted to, and that set him out from all those other guys who had been in her life once upon a time. She spent a whole summer with him and didn’t have sex with him, instead took the time to get to know him for who he as. And although time had meant that she eventually got over the terrible hurt she was feeling when she left, once she learnt that he was at Hogwarts with her, she thought about him every day, whether consciously or not. She wasn’t sure whether or not this was love, but she felt that when she was compared to her peers, it was probably closer to love than what they would ever feel.

As she felt him push his lips into hers, felt his arms tighten around her back and felt her body sliding closer to his from his embrace, Arryn could safely say that even if this wasn’t love, she felt more for Leo than she had felt for anyone else. Who cared if she hadn’t known him too long, or even had a real conversation with him for a few years. She sure as hell didn’t. All she really cared about was that when she felt him pulling her in her skin would tingle as though there were small sparks of electricity was running through her, and that her heart was probably racing about a million beats a second, even as she pulled away. She could hear his words, so softly spoken, echoing in her ears. I love you too. That was all she wanted to hear, all she wanted to know. All the frustration and anger, everything, melted away, and honestly, she couldn’t even remember why they were fighting in the first place. As she walked away, the feeling of regret mingled and mixed with the satisfaction of finally getting to kiss him again, and of feeling the closeness they had once shared. This was all interrupted as she could feel his arms engulf around her, and she felt hers automatically wrap around his shoulders. ”I’ve missed you too.” She whispered into his chest as she let the moment carry her. She could honestly say that this was unexpected. She raised her head and looked at him again, a small smile playing on her lips. ”So… Do you still want to forget all about me?” She asked, her eyes gleaming, anticipating a response. She wasn’t about to lie, to hear him say all those things really hurt, but… He didn’t mean it, right? After all, he just kissed her back. He was the one with his arms around her, driving her crazy with his smell, his closeness... Her gaze remained locked with his, waiting for an answer, not letting anything ruin this moment for her. After all, this was the closest thing to love that she had ever felt. She was finally… Finally!.. in love, and with the boy from a fleeting summer romance, no doubt. Surely the concept of love didn’t come any clearer than this.

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TAGGED ! [/color]leo/vicky.
LYRICS ! back to december - taylor swift
WORDS ! 735
NOTES ! eeeeep, i loved your post so much! it made me want to get mine up asap haha.
OUTFIT ! UNDERNEATH HER ROBES
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